Letters from the Inside, Susan Smith, #3

Dear Kelly,

Hi my friend! How are you? It was great to hear from you as usual. Thanks for the article about Mini and the articles you wrote. I enjoyed them all. Your a comical author. I like your personality a lot.

I have been battling a severe depression and I've been cutting more lately. I'm asking for help but they just seem to don't care. I get 30 minutes of therapy every 3 months. What is that?! I take Wellbutrin and Neurontin. I am waiting to see the psychiatrist now. I think I'll see her next month. I believe my medication is some of the problem.

Are you doing well? I hope you're doing better than I am. Life is just one big cruel joke at times! I wish I had more willingness in me to want to live.

I saw my mom & grandma Sunday and it was an okay visit. To be honest, I felt liek they really didn't want to be there but came anyway out of obligation. Sometimes there are days like that.

Summer is upon us. It gets very hot & humid here. I miss the beach and swimming pools. There's not much here to occupy our minds. They need to have more theraputic things for us. I really wish they would have a dog program. Animals are such great therapy. My most favorite are labs. I think I told you already.

I'm now tutoring English instead of math. I needed a change since they were adamant about me teaching. I had gotten bored with math plus my mental state prevented me from doing my best. I felt I was doing the sutdents more harm than good.

I watched my first Harry Potter movie the other night. I enjoyed it--it was very different. I'm also reading my first fantasy novel. Just trying to make some changes and think outside the box, you know?

Not much else. I look forward to you letters as they always put a smile on my face. You're a great person and I'm glad to have met you. Take care and be blessed.

Hugs,

Susan