Saturday, May 28, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Letters from the Inside, Sarah Pender, #63
Kelly,
I love how the first sentences of the Puzzle blog says that "Art makes Tim Kelly's heart palpiatate, " and you happen to be one of the best puzzle pieces...put on Japanese TV, asked to do another one...you've definitely earned brownie points and he's not married YET.
Tonight is your big night at the movie premiere. I'm wondering if Amir has stuck to the status of you two officially not dating or have you two made up for the sake of the night or are you boycottiing the event?
Yiour last letter and blog entries so completely remind me of being 15 and very depressed, full of teenage angst, and hopelessly in love with someone who would slow down long enbough for me to touch, fuck and run away, just far enough so I could see, hear, smell him, but only touch the careless laughter hanging in the air. One shitty thig about being depressed and in solitary is that I don't have the luxury of an object of attention, passion or even lust. I am alone and all I have is my hate as anb emotional companion. Even it leaves me alone so that I become numb and left with no feelings at all. Your cut out lines, puzzle expression--I bet it was beautiful and eeire at the same time. Collage made with deep emotion always are.
Whenever did you invite the third entity? That is so perfect? I often think back and year for Kim or David or even Rick when I am lonely and I think, why the fuck would I long for rick after what he's done? I realize that what I long for so deeply is the third entity, that chemical reaction or soul reaction that is more beautiful than the finest art, more alive than a 6-month old baby, more magical than Disney World. It is everything you need and more than you could want and I wonder if I can ever get that back again. That world is ending for you and Amir and evenI feel the loss of it halfway across the US.
The Die! about your building lock was great. I wonder if you'd put that on the HANDS site. PERFECT!
As I sit at my little shelf and stool I'm listening to world news and wishing myself somewhere across the world, living a parallel life and wonder if I focus on the vibrations of my energy if I can leap my conscience from this life to a parallel one. If we are not our bodies then it should technically be possible. Perhaps I should look into astral projection. I would certainly become a legendary escape artist if I could do it...they'd find my body in a ocma with my conscience inside another bady, basing in the sun on the terrace of an Italian villa.
Has there been any flirtation with Bruno? If he did show interest would you reciprocate despite his connection to Amir? Do you have any hope for you and Amir? Did you make your new puzzle piece? Not sure how long this will take to get to you but I hope you have a VERY HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY!
Sarah
I love how the first sentences of the Puzzle blog says that "Art makes Tim Kelly's heart palpiatate, " and you happen to be one of the best puzzle pieces...put on Japanese TV, asked to do another one...you've definitely earned brownie points and he's not married YET.
Tonight is your big night at the movie premiere. I'm wondering if Amir has stuck to the status of you two officially not dating or have you two made up for the sake of the night or are you boycottiing the event?
Yiour last letter and blog entries so completely remind me of being 15 and very depressed, full of teenage angst, and hopelessly in love with someone who would slow down long enbough for me to touch, fuck and run away, just far enough so I could see, hear, smell him, but only touch the careless laughter hanging in the air. One shitty thig about being depressed and in solitary is that I don't have the luxury of an object of attention, passion or even lust. I am alone and all I have is my hate as anb emotional companion. Even it leaves me alone so that I become numb and left with no feelings at all. Your cut out lines, puzzle expression--I bet it was beautiful and eeire at the same time. Collage made with deep emotion always are.
Whenever did you invite the third entity? That is so perfect? I often think back and year for Kim or David or even Rick when I am lonely and I think, why the fuck would I long for rick after what he's done? I realize that what I long for so deeply is the third entity, that chemical reaction or soul reaction that is more beautiful than the finest art, more alive than a 6-month old baby, more magical than Disney World. It is everything you need and more than you could want and I wonder if I can ever get that back again. That world is ending for you and Amir and evenI feel the loss of it halfway across the US.
The Die! about your building lock was great. I wonder if you'd put that on the HANDS site. PERFECT!
As I sit at my little shelf and stool I'm listening to world news and wishing myself somewhere across the world, living a parallel life and wonder if I focus on the vibrations of my energy if I can leap my conscience from this life to a parallel one. If we are not our bodies then it should technically be possible. Perhaps I should look into astral projection. I would certainly become a legendary escape artist if I could do it...they'd find my body in a ocma with my conscience inside another bady, basing in the sun on the terrace of an Italian villa.
Has there been any flirtation with Bruno? If he did show interest would you reciprocate despite his connection to Amir? Do you have any hope for you and Amir? Did you make your new puzzle piece? Not sure how long this will take to get to you but I hope you have a VERY HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY!
Sarah
Friday, May 6, 2011
Letters from the Inside, Sarah Pender, #62
Kelly,
Wow, wow and wow in the life of Kelly KXXXX! I am happy that work opportunities and cash has pickd up, even if it is overwhelming, it must be better than worrying about how you will pay your bills. Plus, two other benefits: you have the opportunity to meet new people within your business interests, successful people, and you have so much on your TO DO list that you are a) distracted from yoru state-of-the-relationship stress and b) are less affected by Amir's long hours leading up to them movie premiere.
I think it's cool that Amir was on CNN talking to Eliott Spitzer about Donald Trump. New York is an interesting place. You will have a good time at the movie premiere and make good memories. Both you and Amir have to maintain a frenetic pace at work for a little while, which I think will be a good time for both of you to reboot, and give you time to really miss one another. I think that once, and life slows down a bit for Amir, he will more deeply feel the emptiness lingering where you once were. But it wont' be a game changer. Get your Amir fix when you can and buckle in for a long ride.
Tell Reidtard to please stick to Scrabble because he'll never score enough points playing you with his lame con ons and shabby charm to win the Kelly prize.
Doesn't he still live w/his girlfriend? Okay---your intuitive powers to Google John are scary good.
Even a better mystery: Who left the note - message- link to John's article? Clearly it is someone with whom John must work. or date. But likely an associate of some sort of company. Did you leave a reply note of confirmation? Good idea to alert the legal body. Why can't you confirm whether his name changes in legal or assumed illegally? Don't people have to give public notice of a name change? Maybe that's just an Indiana requirement. With John going to Haiti for company business, he would have buy the ticket in the name of his ID, right? And be paid payroll checks in his legal name. And pay incomne taxes and file a federal 1040 in his legal name. He's weasel. If he was worry for what he did to you, I would be sympathetic to him not wanting that stigma attached to his career life, especially if he were really being an agent of charge in world. But he's not sorry and that makes him a weasel. I think it would befit the situation for a made up person to call him by his actual last name, although in a non-chalent manner. If he's actively avoiding his sociopathic persona, the fact that people have found him out to be the weasel he is might put little fear in his heart. Let him worry about what may or may not be breeding... I have a real distate for men who sexually abuse women. You don't deserve this. If at some time you supsect that his boss does not actually know the full story, maybe a copy of article in her mail box would be appropriate. I DON'T KNOW...To call him a weasel insults weasels.
You mentioned that you never experience mania only depression. Are you chronically depressed? I listen to the NPR Sound Medicine and other interviews with scientists on the hung for cures and better treatment for all that ails us. This time I promise I heart it--I took notes. A few days ago, I heard an interview...son of a bitch. I started taking notes but now can't find them, I have notes on the effects of chronic sitting, reviewed books, activists, and can't find this one. Fuck it! The experiment had to do with Ketamine, the stuff the use tranquilize cats and horses. AKA Special K (Note: I am not sure what the difference is in Ketamine and PCP---which is also as an anesthestic in veterinary medicine. Both are used illegally.)
Basically, Ketamine has been found to alleviate chronic depression in patients who responded to no other drug or treatment. People who had not felt psychologically (or physically) well in years felt markedly better almost immediately.
I think this was an interview with Teri Gross on the show FRESH AIR. It was wirthin the past week on NPR. The interview was not about depression, it was with an an anesthesiologist. He was talking about how when you go into surgery, you don't get put to sleep, you actually get put in a reverse coma.
He talked about how brain relays work and how some anesthesic work on shutting down one area that essentially shuts down the others by its own silence (in some drugs). Anyway, some drugs are used in combination and ketamine is one of them. It seems counterintuitive because Ketamine is actually a stimulant. In small doses, it acts as a stimulant and i tis at this dose that chronic depression sufferers experienced relief. In much higher dosages it causes hallucinations and euphoria (which is why people use it illegally) and in even higher dosages, causes a coma. But the level used to alleviate chronic depression was referred to as "a tiny dose".
Since it is already approved in certain uses, it may be available to you as an option. I am almsot positive that it was FRESH AIR if you want to check it out. With all of your creativity and ability to make things happen, if you were relieved of the heavy blanket of depression, imagine it--your powers would be immeasurable. And perhaps if your moods were more stable, you could scare a REAL engagement ring. No mug joke.
Do you take medicine now? If so, what?
What the fuck are you going to do if you run into John? How is it that in a city---NEW YORK CITY--that big, you two are magnetized? Maybe the Universe is keeping you close so that when he does do another act of attempted murder, you'll know--and everyone else will know--hwere to find him or maybe your sleuth skills are somehow saving someone else's life...because he knows he can't hide from the almighty KK.
How did your coffee date go with Tim Kelly? I secretly want you to fall madly in love with each other (now that his wife left him for a woman lover!) and become semi-famous artists- you doing PR and managing exhibitiions and sales/auctions/galleries and contributing your own creative skilils when you please. You and Amir become honestly content being best friends and you live happily ever after as Kelly Kelly.
Why on earth would a man who has heated m arble floors cut his own hair before appearing on national television? Really, Amir? If his barbering is in anyway reflected by his gift-wrapping skills, only my appearancefrom the bowels of hell onto AMW could be worse... Okay, Okay. It could never be that bad!
Still, I'll never forget that your Scrabble dictionary was described as being wrapped by a handless elf.
Sorry about the paper; I'm recycling. Makes me feel better about eating meat.
I want you to tell me about your experience with the PunchDrunk theater performance. It sounds genius. I'm not into violence, but the rest...YES! In November, while I was out, my lover and i went to a swinger's club house for the first time. Had great fun. Anbd the carnival mask requirement is brilliant- to alllow the audience to watch with less self-consciousness or shame.
I look forward to seeing your 41st birthday puzzle piece and your AK+KK hand art. You two should get married. You will marry a man whose last name begins with K. The Universe would not have brought you the KK necklace with a fate of having to change your initials. NOPE.
Have you heard of ADELE? An amazing, powerful foice. "Rolling in the Deep" one of the lines talks about having despair and "making a home DOWN THERE". Reminded me of you so I listed and jotted down the chorus.
Take care,
Sarah
Wow, wow and wow in the life of Kelly KXXXX! I am happy that work opportunities and cash has pickd up, even if it is overwhelming, it must be better than worrying about how you will pay your bills. Plus, two other benefits: you have the opportunity to meet new people within your business interests, successful people, and you have so much on your TO DO list that you are a) distracted from yoru state-of-the-relationship stress and b) are less affected by Amir's long hours leading up to them movie premiere.
I think it's cool that Amir was on CNN talking to Eliott Spitzer about Donald Trump. New York is an interesting place. You will have a good time at the movie premiere and make good memories. Both you and Amir have to maintain a frenetic pace at work for a little while, which I think will be a good time for both of you to reboot, and give you time to really miss one another. I think that once, and life slows down a bit for Amir, he will more deeply feel the emptiness lingering where you once were. But it wont' be a game changer. Get your Amir fix when you can and buckle in for a long ride.
Tell Reidtard to please stick to Scrabble because he'll never score enough points playing you with his lame con ons and shabby charm to win the Kelly prize.
Doesn't he still live w/his girlfriend? Okay---your intuitive powers to Google John are scary good.
Even a better mystery: Who left the note - message- link to John's article? Clearly it is someone with whom John must work. or date. But likely an associate of some sort of company. Did you leave a reply note of confirmation? Good idea to alert the legal body. Why can't you confirm whether his name changes in legal or assumed illegally? Don't people have to give public notice of a name change? Maybe that's just an Indiana requirement. With John going to Haiti for company business, he would have buy the ticket in the name of his ID, right? And be paid payroll checks in his legal name. And pay incomne taxes and file a federal 1040 in his legal name. He's weasel. If he was worry for what he did to you, I would be sympathetic to him not wanting that stigma attached to his career life, especially if he were really being an agent of charge in world. But he's not sorry and that makes him a weasel. I think it would befit the situation for a made up person to call him by his actual last name, although in a non-chalent manner. If he's actively avoiding his sociopathic persona, the fact that people have found him out to be the weasel he is might put little fear in his heart. Let him worry about what may or may not be breeding... I have a real distate for men who sexually abuse women. You don't deserve this. If at some time you supsect that his boss does not actually know the full story, maybe a copy of article in her mail box would be appropriate. I DON'T KNOW...To call him a weasel insults weasels.
You mentioned that you never experience mania only depression. Are you chronically depressed? I listen to the NPR Sound Medicine and other interviews with scientists on the hung for cures and better treatment for all that ails us. This time I promise I heart it--I took notes. A few days ago, I heard an interview...son of a bitch. I started taking notes but now can't find them, I have notes on the effects of chronic sitting, reviewed books, activists, and can't find this one. Fuck it! The experiment had to do with Ketamine, the stuff the use tranquilize cats and horses. AKA Special K (Note: I am not sure what the difference is in Ketamine and PCP---which is also as an anesthestic in veterinary medicine. Both are used illegally.)
Basically, Ketamine has been found to alleviate chronic depression in patients who responded to no other drug or treatment. People who had not felt psychologically (or physically) well in years felt markedly better almost immediately.
I think this was an interview with Teri Gross on the show FRESH AIR. It was wirthin the past week on NPR. The interview was not about depression, it was with an an anesthesiologist. He was talking about how when you go into surgery, you don't get put to sleep, you actually get put in a reverse coma.
He talked about how brain relays work and how some anesthesic work on shutting down one area that essentially shuts down the others by its own silence (in some drugs). Anyway, some drugs are used in combination and ketamine is one of them. It seems counterintuitive because Ketamine is actually a stimulant. In small doses, it acts as a stimulant and i tis at this dose that chronic depression sufferers experienced relief. In much higher dosages it causes hallucinations and euphoria (which is why people use it illegally) and in even higher dosages, causes a coma. But the level used to alleviate chronic depression was referred to as "a tiny dose".
Since it is already approved in certain uses, it may be available to you as an option. I am almsot positive that it was FRESH AIR if you want to check it out. With all of your creativity and ability to make things happen, if you were relieved of the heavy blanket of depression, imagine it--your powers would be immeasurable. And perhaps if your moods were more stable, you could scare a REAL engagement ring. No mug joke.
Do you take medicine now? If so, what?
What the fuck are you going to do if you run into John? How is it that in a city---NEW YORK CITY--that big, you two are magnetized? Maybe the Universe is keeping you close so that when he does do another act of attempted murder, you'll know--and everyone else will know--hwere to find him or maybe your sleuth skills are somehow saving someone else's life...because he knows he can't hide from the almighty KK.
How did your coffee date go with Tim Kelly? I secretly want you to fall madly in love with each other (now that his wife left him for a woman lover!) and become semi-famous artists- you doing PR and managing exhibitiions and sales/auctions/galleries and contributing your own creative skilils when you please. You and Amir become honestly content being best friends and you live happily ever after as Kelly Kelly.
Why on earth would a man who has heated m arble floors cut his own hair before appearing on national television? Really, Amir? If his barbering is in anyway reflected by his gift-wrapping skills, only my appearancefrom the bowels of hell onto AMW could be worse... Okay, Okay. It could never be that bad!
Still, I'll never forget that your Scrabble dictionary was described as being wrapped by a handless elf.
Sorry about the paper; I'm recycling. Makes me feel better about eating meat.
I want you to tell me about your experience with the PunchDrunk theater performance. It sounds genius. I'm not into violence, but the rest...YES! In November, while I was out, my lover and i went to a swinger's club house for the first time. Had great fun. Anbd the carnival mask requirement is brilliant- to alllow the audience to watch with less self-consciousness or shame.
I look forward to seeing your 41st birthday puzzle piece and your AK+KK hand art. You two should get married. You will marry a man whose last name begins with K. The Universe would not have brought you the KK necklace with a fate of having to change your initials. NOPE.
Have you heard of ADELE? An amazing, powerful foice. "Rolling in the Deep" one of the lines talks about having despair and "making a home DOWN THERE". Reminded me of you so I listed and jotted down the chorus.
Take care,
Sarah
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Letters from the Inside, Michael Swango, #120
Dear Kelly,
Hi sunshine! Late April, which means heavy, wet snow, lots of it--in the Colorado mountains to the west and south. Like happy hour it is always winter somewhere....
Returning immediately to your letter(s):
I think we left off with: have you heard anything about the super-twisty thriller DOUBLE HOUR? It still blows my mind about the letters/and and OMG! the cast of GLEE will be covering Rebecca Black's "Friday"...talk about an internet sensation and fifteen minutes of fame!
Request: IN ADDITION to anything you see on David Foster Wallace's THE PALE KING could you also send anything that discusses or analyzes THE KILLING. Everything about that show is brilliant. I could easily talk about it for 30 minutes but much more to get to. Actually, one thing to ask you: Before it started ou thought it would be a GREAT show (agreed) and that you hoped it would be Lynchian. I doubt if I've seen as much David Lynch as you have [Eraserhead, Blue Velvet, Twin Peaks] but even though it does not seem Lynchian. I think they've found a different sort of excellence. Your thoughts?
Just heard the opening bass guitar riff to Duffy's Mercy -- being used in a commercial. One of my favorite songs from the last 3-4 years...the video is outstanding as well.
Quick hits from your small print letter:
>Sorry the Tyson show was so boring. When I heard about it I immediately thought of you bcause I know you like Iron Mike AND pigeons!
>Do not complain, bitch or moan about your "Client List". Was it only eighteen months or so ago that you were looking at boxes to live inm on the street? I am so glad you are so busy and so wanted.
> Not so ironic or unusual that i mentioned Louis CK's return [Yay!} in June. You, my dea, lead an extremely busy and(as you told me) occasionally harried life. Honestly? I'm amazed that you are as "up" on and involved with as many thing as you are. Thank God for the internet, FB, BBerry that keeps you in touch and aware 24/7.
> Twelve Days of Amir--I love Ak+KK. Does this guy realize how adored he must be? You two certainly have a lot of those unique couple stories that make a relationship. Then I got your letter with Amir's email...more in a bit.
[Ed.: Omitting movie talk.]
>Good question: I cannot save letters for very long for the reasons you correctly stated. However, you are able to save mine and yours since almost all of your letters are on your computer. Quite an interesting record, n'est-ce pas?
***
Let me talk about your most recent letter, just received. Regarding the endless angst and Stum and Drang* of your tempestuous relationship with Amir...
What a brilliantly and intelligently written email...romantic, loving, and utterly, absolutely perplexing. I totally believe tht he loves his KK, but for some reason cannot embrace it. He seems to see such a loving "permanent for now' relationship as an ending and not as a begining as it is.
[Personal note: Hard as it may be to believe, I was once in a somewhat similar situation with the genders reversed...I gelt as you do---hopelessly, madly and obessively. She did as well, but had some strange paradoxes of Amir's way of thinking.
I, of course, did not stop or give up but as a man in the pre-internet age it was probably easier than it is for a women--even today.
Yes--she became my "one and only" finally. However it was hell on wheels for a while...
BUT [always the but} Kelly I did not know his friend were poisoning the well against you. Especially female friends/colleagues. This time I agree with your use of the C-word for Lauren---Who the eff is she?????
This I know: A guy's male friends will rarely say anything negative about his girlfriend--not their business except to support him. And if they do he probably won't listen and will resent it.
Same--more or less--with a woman's female friends. KK loves him--tell us all about it. Unless he's beating her or sleeping around....again--supportive with her.
It is a man's female friends or work colleague who can have far more inlfuence on them regarding his lover, girlfriend or fiance.
OMG Kelly--how do you NOT (as Seinfeld would put it-ambush the bitch with a sackful of pennies! I think a woman like Lauren can be even more insidious than a man in a similar position. Especially when a man is a successful, intelligent, yes---very good looking, man with what sounds like an amazing career and limitless future--LIKE AMIR.
What she said is terrible--"bad for his magazine's rep" "loose cannon". Again---I ask the question:
WHO THE EFF IS SHE???
I've never met these people and I'm furious.
Again, unless a girlfriend/boyfriend/lover is physically abusive, sleeping aroundor something destructive--it is no one's business.
Your final question: What can I do to get him back?
ANSWER: You haven't lost him yet. Fight like hell. I would expect nothing less.
Must ask one more question, which might help to understand Amir's "Bartleby the Scriveners" - like reluctance and incertaintly.
Question: Has Amir ever had anything really bad happen to him? Suicide of a loved one- a cherished one...a near-fatal car or motorcycle accident...serious illness...death of someone young, close to him...something that makes you aware in a brilliant blinding flahs that all this we take for granted can be gone in an instant--tomorrow...even today?
Thank you. I really want to know.
[BTW, In the ABC fam show "Make it or Break it" the QUEEN BITCH is named Lauren.]
You hang in there and stay safe. Thinking of you, sunshine.
Hi sunshine! Late April, which means heavy, wet snow, lots of it--in the Colorado mountains to the west and south. Like happy hour it is always winter somewhere....
Returning immediately to your letter(s):
I think we left off with: have you heard anything about the super-twisty thriller DOUBLE HOUR? It still blows my mind about the letters/and and OMG! the cast of GLEE will be covering Rebecca Black's "Friday"...talk about an internet sensation and fifteen minutes of fame!
Request: IN ADDITION to anything you see on David Foster Wallace's THE PALE KING could you also send anything that discusses or analyzes THE KILLING. Everything about that show is brilliant. I could easily talk about it for 30 minutes but much more to get to. Actually, one thing to ask you: Before it started ou thought it would be a GREAT show (agreed) and that you hoped it would be Lynchian. I doubt if I've seen as much David Lynch as you have [Eraserhead, Blue Velvet, Twin Peaks] but even though it does not seem Lynchian. I think they've found a different sort of excellence. Your thoughts?
Just heard the opening bass guitar riff to Duffy's Mercy -- being used in a commercial. One of my favorite songs from the last 3-4 years...the video is outstanding as well.
Quick hits from your small print letter:
>Sorry the Tyson show was so boring. When I heard about it I immediately thought of you bcause I know you like Iron Mike AND pigeons!
>Do not complain, bitch or moan about your "Client List". Was it only eighteen months or so ago that you were looking at boxes to live inm on the street? I am so glad you are so busy and so wanted.
> Not so ironic or unusual that i mentioned Louis CK's return [Yay!} in June. You, my dea, lead an extremely busy and(as you told me) occasionally harried life. Honestly? I'm amazed that you are as "up" on and involved with as many thing as you are. Thank God for the internet, FB, BBerry that keeps you in touch and aware 24/7.
> Twelve Days of Amir--I love Ak+KK. Does this guy realize how adored he must be? You two certainly have a lot of those unique couple stories that make a relationship. Then I got your letter with Amir's email...more in a bit.
[Ed.: Omitting movie talk.]
>Good question: I cannot save letters for very long for the reasons you correctly stated. However, you are able to save mine and yours since almost all of your letters are on your computer. Quite an interesting record, n'est-ce pas?
***
Let me talk about your most recent letter, just received. Regarding the endless angst and Stum and Drang* of your tempestuous relationship with Amir...
What a brilliantly and intelligently written email...romantic, loving, and utterly, absolutely perplexing. I totally believe tht he loves his KK, but for some reason cannot embrace it. He seems to see such a loving "permanent for now' relationship as an ending and not as a begining as it is.
[Personal note: Hard as it may be to believe, I was once in a somewhat similar situation with the genders reversed...I gelt as you do---hopelessly, madly and obessively. She did as well, but had some strange paradoxes of Amir's way of thinking.
I, of course, did not stop or give up but as a man in the pre-internet age it was probably easier than it is for a women--even today.
Yes--she became my "one and only" finally. However it was hell on wheels for a while...
BUT [always the but} Kelly I did not know his friend were poisoning the well against you. Especially female friends/colleagues. This time I agree with your use of the C-word for Lauren---Who the eff is she?????
This I know: A guy's male friends will rarely say anything negative about his girlfriend--not their business except to support him. And if they do he probably won't listen and will resent it.
Same--more or less--with a woman's female friends. KK loves him--tell us all about it. Unless he's beating her or sleeping around....again--supportive with her.
It is a man's female friends or work colleague who can have far more inlfuence on them regarding his lover, girlfriend or fiance.
OMG Kelly--how do you NOT (as Seinfeld would put it-ambush the bitch with a sackful of pennies! I think a woman like Lauren can be even more insidious than a man in a similar position. Especially when a man is a successful, intelligent, yes---very good looking, man with what sounds like an amazing career and limitless future--LIKE AMIR.
What she said is terrible--"bad for his magazine's rep" "loose cannon". Again---I ask the question:
WHO THE EFF IS SHE???
I've never met these people and I'm furious.
Again, unless a girlfriend/boyfriend/lover is physically abusive, sleeping aroundor something destructive--it is no one's business.
Your final question: What can I do to get him back?
ANSWER: You haven't lost him yet. Fight like hell. I would expect nothing less.
Must ask one more question, which might help to understand Amir's "Bartleby the Scriveners" - like reluctance and incertaintly.
Question: Has Amir ever had anything really bad happen to him? Suicide of a loved one- a cherished one...a near-fatal car or motorcycle accident...serious illness...death of someone young, close to him...something that makes you aware in a brilliant blinding flahs that all this we take for granted can be gone in an instant--tomorrow...even today?
Thank you. I really want to know.
[BTW, In the ABC fam show "Make it or Break it" the QUEEN BITCH is named Lauren.]
You hang in there and stay safe. Thinking of you, sunshine.
