Letters from the Inside, Michael Swango, #89

[I'm only going to write the interesting things from the three letters he sent this week.]

Dear Kelly,

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The Amir situation progresses... Clearly Kelly there is a powerful attraction here. But in all seriousness, really hard to believe that there has not been intense emotionally powerful sexual coupllings between you two. The intense attractive force deserves to be "fleshed out." There question is: are you two heavenly bodies that can orbit & interact symbiotically? Or will one crash into the other, annihilating both?

*KK- As you should know by now--I draw a very bright line between "meaningless" purely physical sexual coupling/AND the incredible intensity & richness or oral, vaginal & anal sex between a man & woman with deep emotional connection & a willingness to surrender their bodies to each other completely.

Amir for the last time on the 4th? Doesn't he realize that without some commitment, no relationship can reach some of those "magic moments"/ not just sexually (he is a guy after all, KK) but emotionally and that feeling inside that all is "right" with the world even, if only fo ra day or night or week or month... Doesn't he know that without sojme emotional commitment, some letting go of the "sefl" for the other person... You can't even begin to reach those levels...

Maybe he'll "get it". You certainly do, KK. That's why I like you so much. Hang in there, sunshine. You of all people konw how things like this can change overnight.