Letters from the Inside, Michael Swango, #54

Ed: This is an interesting letter because of the portion where he answers the question of what it felt like to kill someone.

Dear KK---

Let me get right to "page 2" of your letter---still so much to talk about.

[Ed.: I'm omitting his writing about Kristen Chenoweth in Wicked and Glee and also omitting Breaking Bad commentary. The next portion is also omitted here; it discusses Tracy Morgan, 30 Rock and SNL]

What is it about these True Crime shows you watch that fascinates you so much? I find that to be a most interesting side of you, KK...

[Here is where he answers the question, "How does it feel to kill someone? What goes through your mind as you are doing so?"]

The short answer to your question is, "nothing at all." That's why it went on for so long. No deep thoughts, or confusion, or remorse or anything else. Let me think about what else I can say, and get back to you.... Again, that was then, not now...

[Ed.: I'm omitting the next section that discusses TV shows.]

RE your former high schoolmates, and your present-day comparisons in appearance...Kelly you ARE a supermodel! The one-eyed wolverine/smart, sassy and so sexy...Please don't think I say this because I've been in here for a while. You need to understand that those judgments and opinions and feelings and sensations do not diminish in any way... Again you do not wish to discuss (apparently) anything even remotely sexual or sensual, even in a clinical or historical sense, so it is difficult for me to make this point to you clearly: What each of us has done, has experienced--sexually, emotionally and lovingly (maybe!)---determines so much about who we are now and why we are the way we are. Whether one lives in New York City or Atlanta, GA or Florence, CO.

So my opinions concerning you are honest, and would be the same whether I was here or anywhere. If you care to delve much deeper, let me know. I thin you would find such conversations extremely interesting and satisfying. Your call, KK.

[Ed. I'm redacting more tv notes.]

Will resume this letter with "Part 3" later this evening. You take care, hot supermodel, one-eyed wolverine girl. Thinking about you, and hope to finish your letter before receiving your next one. Just to repeat what I said on page 4--let me know if you want to go a bit deeper/actually a lot deeper. I would rather know one person intimately than 20 people superficially...

Take care, Kelly

Yours,

Michael.

P.S. I see Drew Barrymore is hosting SNL this weekend. Hopefully she'll inject some life into the season.