Hey Kelly,
Thank you for the card I just received. Mail means more to an inmate than just about anything. you had told me previously about the problems with your friend. I had hoped you two had worked it out. I'm sorry. I did not expect any correspondence from you for I thought you would be gone. Where did you stay since you had arrangements for your place? I haven't a clue about what type of ceremony that it was that you attended.
Good to hear some new business has come your way. I thought I read where Harlem was coming up since President Clinton set up shop there. I hope the new year brings a boom to your business.
My details for the last three (3) years has been in an optical lab. I am sure it is not state of the art but it is one of the few details one can occupy their time with here. I do it mainly to get out of the cell houses and stay busy. We call it "detail" for you get paid to work which we don't. I am more a warehouse/stock/clerical kind of thing than anything else. I really didn't push to learn much since I originally planned to transfer to another prison with medium security so as to have more privileges. Hays is what we call a Level 6 maximum security prison. We have a new warden so there is very little free movement at this time.
How was the subtitled film at the Guild? Did you dress up? Was it a "be seen at event?" I love movies, but I can't say I am always a cultural high-brow. We have access to three tvs in of dorm: one dedicated to sports, the others to movies and whatever. Unfortunately, not enough wished to watch IDOL'S premiere so I've no idea what went on. I don't' watch LOST; it is difficult to get the TV regular enough to commit to a series. The cable is extremely basic also.
Some prisoners live for it and violence sometimes kicks off over that, what we nickname a "tuck-box".
I have been reading my Bible again alot lately. I always liked John MacDonald novels and just found one called The End of the Night. I had not seen before. It was primarily about a thrill kill group and tells the story from all angles first person: killers, Feds, victim, etc. I quit it for a found it not escapist enough for me. A little too depressing but considering it was from the 60s I believe, it and he always seem quite contemporary.
I don't know if you can call prisoners your "friends". Generally you might pick a few to group with most of the time and watch each other's back, then just show the rest limited respect and carry yourself right and most of the time you are alright. I have mostly shared a two (2) man cell since I have been down but am now in a two (2) floor open dorm like a barracks. No privacy, but I am not locked down in a room all night. One just adapts. Prisoners run the gamut here: real old to real young, short timers to lifers, all races together. We have alot of gang activity picking up there due to the increase in young guys with long sentences. That's a security problem now. I won't tell you all are innocent or good, but you do meet some straight up guys here better than most you meet on the street. There are some who are proud of the lifestyle and need to stay here, at least till they learn better, if ever. It's not like TV, we have gays but not many that I know of anyway. Snitches all over but few get hurt, child molesters which everyone hates but few get hurt either. You can die here; we have had several deaths and severe assaults in the last few months. Usually it is not spontaneous violence, but some mitigating circumstance that precipitated it. Theft, debt, snitching, etc. I'm straight, don't gamble, borrow money, don't care about that tv and stay out of the "dope game" so I avoid issues unless some youngster tries to rob me. But they never come alone anyway.
The general biggest problems for an inmate here are staying in contact with supporters on the outside and making a little money to buy extra food and hygiene products to help you be comfortable. They starve you up in here and health care is an embarrassment.
O.K. It's late and I am tired so I'll stop there. As usual, I'm well considering. Thanks for writing again and do so again soon. If you need to talk to me about your friend or anything, I try to listen and God knows I always have an opinion about everything.
Be good or be good at it,
Bart
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Letters from the Inside, Michael Swango, #71
Dear Kelly,
Hi Sunshine! Much to get to, much to discuss. with the holidays coming to a close, hopefully my letters can get back to "normal" plus a bit quicker delivery times. Your most recent letter is in front of me... Thanks for writing despite all that has happened to you these past few weeks---wouldn't blame you if you burrowed into your apartment incommunicado for about a month!
I'm sure you've seen those life stress charts, that rate various crises by the mental and physical stress they put on us. Loss of a spouse/loss of a child/loss of a job, etc. it's not as high as those, but loss of a good friend ain't easy. I really feel for you with losing your "in-Tokyo" friend to this whole trip to Japan/apt. switch fiasco. I've lost a few friends over the years--some due to my legal difficulties--always tough.
You definitely deserve some major TLC and much much more---your usual reservations prevent me from describing how a lovely Rachel-type should be exquisitely and lovingly treated. But, you... I only hope the man who unlocks that appreciates all that you are, KK.
Now to your letter: I think your friend needs to think through his karmic theories much more thoroughly. I don't recall that the original ALS patient--Lou Gehrig--was know for his correspondence with the incarcerated. [Ed.: My friend has said that I am incurring bad karma by writing to murderers. He supposes that by doing so their bad energy comes to me through their letters. He cites a recent article in the Times about a famous crime writer who has been now diagnoses with ALS. My friend says he believes this guy got ALS by interacting with so many murderers. I think my friend's conclusions are nuts and baseless, but I presented them to Swango for his response.] and if your friend absolutely certain that no one he knows has ever killed someone? If they have, will their karma affect him? Or is it only if he knows? If a tree falls in a forest and no on is around to hear it...?
Anyway, I would like to read that article he cites - do send if you can.
[Ed.: I am omitting many paragraphs about recent movies. They are mostly just summaries.]
Why am I not surprised you have Ann Rule on metaphorical speed dial? Don't know the Barton Corbin story--but if you are interested in truly sociopathic dentists: search online for the case of Dr. Engleman in the St. Louis area in the 1970s & 1980s. Very bizarre and very hi-profile case in the days before cable 24/7. Tell me what you think after you have read a bit.
Your hobby [writing to sociopathic prisoners] is no "odder" than many and you know me well enough to know that I judge no one. I find you captivating. You are an amazing mind, Kelly, that never stops working. and I imagine you have learned things from your "hobby" that you could learn nowhere else...
[Ed.: I'm omitting more pop culture film and book talk.]
Your letter is so chockful of remarkable bits of information--a man could definitely spend years exploring your mind and body -- oopps-Sorry but it is definitely one to be explored in detail..
[Ed. I am again omitting more movie talk.]
***
Would very much like to hear about that workplace love years ago--clearly it was a powerful relationship & experience that left a lasting impression. Again, a way to know you better...much better.
I still need to tell you about my NOLA experience--also very intense--emotionally and sexually. The two are so intertwined, you cannot discuss one without the other. One should not exist without the other... And with love you add an almost immeasurable dimension to both. Do you agree, dear Kelly?
KK: See White Ribbon..a chance to explore the creation of sociopaths as children/ see this film, Kelly!
Stay safe, stay healthy, and hang in there, KK. Thinking of you--and hope to hear from you again soon. XOXO GG
Yours,
Michael
[Ed.: Just to reiterate to my readers: I have told Swango, over and over, I will not discuss anything sexual and I have asked him multiple times to refrain from doing so or referencing such.]
Hi Sunshine! Much to get to, much to discuss. with the holidays coming to a close, hopefully my letters can get back to "normal" plus a bit quicker delivery times. Your most recent letter is in front of me... Thanks for writing despite all that has happened to you these past few weeks---wouldn't blame you if you burrowed into your apartment incommunicado for about a month!
I'm sure you've seen those life stress charts, that rate various crises by the mental and physical stress they put on us. Loss of a spouse/loss of a child/loss of a job, etc. it's not as high as those, but loss of a good friend ain't easy. I really feel for you with losing your "in-Tokyo" friend to this whole trip to Japan/apt. switch fiasco. I've lost a few friends over the years--some due to my legal difficulties--always tough.
You definitely deserve some major TLC and much much more---your usual reservations prevent me from describing how a lovely Rachel-type should be exquisitely and lovingly treated. But, you... I only hope the man who unlocks that appreciates all that you are, KK.
Now to your letter: I think your friend needs to think through his karmic theories much more thoroughly. I don't recall that the original ALS patient--Lou Gehrig--was know for his correspondence with the incarcerated. [Ed.: My friend has said that I am incurring bad karma by writing to murderers. He supposes that by doing so their bad energy comes to me through their letters. He cites a recent article in the Times about a famous crime writer who has been now diagnoses with ALS. My friend says he believes this guy got ALS by interacting with so many murderers. I think my friend's conclusions are nuts and baseless, but I presented them to Swango for his response.] and if your friend absolutely certain that no one he knows has ever killed someone? If they have, will their karma affect him? Or is it only if he knows? If a tree falls in a forest and no on is around to hear it...?
Anyway, I would like to read that article he cites - do send if you can.
[Ed.: I am omitting many paragraphs about recent movies. They are mostly just summaries.]
Why am I not surprised you have Ann Rule on metaphorical speed dial? Don't know the Barton Corbin story--but if you are interested in truly sociopathic dentists: search online for the case of Dr. Engleman in the St. Louis area in the 1970s & 1980s. Very bizarre and very hi-profile case in the days before cable 24/7. Tell me what you think after you have read a bit.
Your hobby [writing to sociopathic prisoners] is no "odder" than many and you know me well enough to know that I judge no one. I find you captivating. You are an amazing mind, Kelly, that never stops working. and I imagine you have learned things from your "hobby" that you could learn nowhere else...
[Ed.: I'm omitting more pop culture film and book talk.]
Your letter is so chockful of remarkable bits of information--a man could definitely spend years exploring your mind and body -- oopps-Sorry but it is definitely one to be explored in detail..
[Ed. I am again omitting more movie talk.]
***
Would very much like to hear about that workplace love years ago--clearly it was a powerful relationship & experience that left a lasting impression. Again, a way to know you better...much better.
I still need to tell you about my NOLA experience--also very intense--emotionally and sexually. The two are so intertwined, you cannot discuss one without the other. One should not exist without the other... And with love you add an almost immeasurable dimension to both. Do you agree, dear Kelly?
KK: See White Ribbon..a chance to explore the creation of sociopaths as children/ see this film, Kelly!
Stay safe, stay healthy, and hang in there, KK. Thinking of you--and hope to hear from you again soon. XOXO GG
Yours,
Michael
[Ed.: Just to reiterate to my readers: I have told Swango, over and over, I will not discuss anything sexual and I have asked him multiple times to refrain from doing so or referencing such.]
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Lettesr from the Inside, Michael Swango, #70
My Dear Kelly,
I would say "I hope your holidays were GREAT!"- but that woudl not be me, nor would it reflect reality, based on your letter received just before Christmas. As you so succinctly put it: "The holiday season sucks." So sorry to hear about the cancelled trip and your falling out with what sounded like a good friend. They (She) would have to be to travel overseas with them! Plus the bizarre complication with the lawsuit and her "baby daddy" which somehow involves you. Your life these days is the opposite of "No Drama Obama"--although things have gotten pretty complicated for his administration these past few weeks as well.
You've been on my mind a lot these past few days/thinking of you with all that's going on. Wanting to get this out to you today-no time to describe what you sooo need right now. Suffice it to say he doesn't need to be your soulmate, but someone who you trust totally with your body...certain things are only done with a partner you trust. (Don't get me started on that! Actually you can if you are interested.) Would love to elaborate, but that would probably make you somewhat uncomfortable--although is shouldn't. Anyway, perhaps will discuss in my next letter....but as I move on, know that I genuinely hope things improve as the holiday season ENDS...
Hoping to receive an update from you before the next long weekend--New Years Day++ General apologies for all the delays at this end and through the mails this time of year.
Again: Please send "Rant Heard 'Round the World" and the on-line commentary/reaction. You know I love your on-line persona, Rachel...!
Speaking of the "real" Glee Rachel: They've been showing repeats/Last week two of my personal favorites: The football team dancing to Beyonce's "Single girl" with Kurt as the kicker; AND the song that affects me so much: ALONE by Heart--sung by Kristin Chenoweth. Talk about a huge voice from such a tiny woman. Have you ever seen her in person on stage? She's supposed to be good... I'm curious.
If and when you are able--would love to hear exactly how you became embroiled in the legal machinations between your friend and her "baby daddy". Even for New York it sounds weird. How do these things find you, KK?
Must ask if you have any good snowstorms stories from New York. You guys got hit pretty good. Sounds like Long Island got hit even worse. did you barricade yourself in your warm apartment with DVDs and Chinese? Or were ou forced to venture out in your knee-high boots and winter clothes?
>Have you followed the Amanda Knox case in Italy? Just a travesty. Hope she has strong inner resources to draw on while the appeal drags on...
>So you were talking about Don Draper as a sociopath (I absolutely agree with you) Side-by-side comparison enclosed.
Still more to write, Kelly, AND hope to recieve a letter from you either Wed or Thu. So--another letter for sure over the Long Weekend #2.
Again-take care-thinking of you & sending out positive thoughts. Have a safe and healthy New Year. you will survive, as always.
More to follow, Kelly.
XOXO
GG & MP (Melrose Place) & 90201 & VD (Vampire Diaries)
Yours,
Michael
I would say "I hope your holidays were GREAT!"- but that woudl not be me, nor would it reflect reality, based on your letter received just before Christmas. As you so succinctly put it: "The holiday season sucks." So sorry to hear about the cancelled trip and your falling out with what sounded like a good friend. They (She) would have to be to travel overseas with them! Plus the bizarre complication with the lawsuit and her "baby daddy" which somehow involves you. Your life these days is the opposite of "No Drama Obama"--although things have gotten pretty complicated for his administration these past few weeks as well.
You've been on my mind a lot these past few days/thinking of you with all that's going on. Wanting to get this out to you today-no time to describe what you sooo need right now. Suffice it to say he doesn't need to be your soulmate, but someone who you trust totally with your body...certain things are only done with a partner you trust. (Don't get me started on that! Actually you can if you are interested.) Would love to elaborate, but that would probably make you somewhat uncomfortable--although is shouldn't. Anyway, perhaps will discuss in my next letter....but as I move on, know that I genuinely hope things improve as the holiday season ENDS...
Hoping to receive an update from you before the next long weekend--New Years Day++ General apologies for all the delays at this end and through the mails this time of year.
Again: Please send "Rant Heard 'Round the World" and the on-line commentary/reaction. You know I love your on-line persona, Rachel...!
Speaking of the "real" Glee Rachel: They've been showing repeats/Last week two of my personal favorites: The football team dancing to Beyonce's "Single girl" with Kurt as the kicker; AND the song that affects me so much: ALONE by Heart--sung by Kristin Chenoweth. Talk about a huge voice from such a tiny woman. Have you ever seen her in person on stage? She's supposed to be good... I'm curious.
If and when you are able--would love to hear exactly how you became embroiled in the legal machinations between your friend and her "baby daddy". Even for New York it sounds weird. How do these things find you, KK?
Must ask if you have any good snowstorms stories from New York. You guys got hit pretty good. Sounds like Long Island got hit even worse. did you barricade yourself in your warm apartment with DVDs and Chinese? Or were ou forced to venture out in your knee-high boots and winter clothes?
>Have you followed the Amanda Knox case in Italy? Just a travesty. Hope she has strong inner resources to draw on while the appeal drags on...
>So you were talking about Don Draper as a sociopath (I absolutely agree with you) Side-by-side comparison enclosed.
Still more to write, Kelly, AND hope to recieve a letter from you either Wed or Thu. So--another letter for sure over the Long Weekend #2.
Again-take care-thinking of you & sending out positive thoughts. Have a safe and healthy New Year. you will survive, as always.
More to follow, Kelly.
XOXO
GG & MP (Melrose Place) & 90201 & VD (Vampire Diaries)
Yours,
Michael
Monday, January 11, 2010
Letters from the Inside, Sarah Pender, #24
Dear Kelly,
Well, I had delayed writing, thinking you would be in Japan. I am flabbergasted that you had to lose out on $1300 on your ticket. That's like a whole month's salary. I guess you didn't get a refundable ticket. Holy crap. Yes, I think Stef might just be a cunt face afterall.
Yes, the court filings are a pain in the ass, but aren't there pro bono legal aides there to help? I did a year's worth of reserach to file all my post-conviction stuff. Good luck. and what a total douche for suing for $4m. Come on. If he lied about having cash, then his name is not worth $4m. That's just greed and opportunistic assholism. At least you know it is unjustified. Can't you and the website guy hook up to share the court filings? Since you are joint defendants?
I am quite amused at your constant ability to be recognized as a talented writer and yet you do so little with it to your advantage. You win random writing contests, you win oral contests, web contests, have a great blog and yes, you don't use it to support yourself. Why?
Please, please send me your NoteGuy rant. I need a laugh. Really.
Monday before Christmas the Superintendant came with a few other poeple from Administration and told me that my behavior was exemplary, that he could find ont one staff member that had anything bad to say about me, and that I wuold not be leaving lock because their security is not up to par and he doesn't feel comfortable putting me in population. So I remain locked in a room. Maybe for 3 months. Maybe for 6 months. In the meantime, my consolation is that i was given a cross stitch project to work on and extra time out of my room a few days a week to work on it. They say they are working on other things, better changes. In the meantime, punish, punish, punish. Sorry, we are guards of DOC who can't guard you, Sarah. That's government for you.
So that was really fucking depressing and I spent the next five days laying in bed, reading spy novels, sleeping and getting off. Fuck it. I was on staycation.
Mom and her boyfriend came to visit on Christmas morning and then I saw her again on New Year's Day. I hated it when staff members ask me, "How was your Christmas?" or "what did you do for New Year's?" Are you fucking serious? "Well, Christmas was great, just me, mom, John and the Lady Bug, chillin with Jesus. Then New Year's Eve I set up an altar and did a good magic spell to make you bastards stop punishing me. Is it working yet?
They'd keep me for another six months, easy.
Did you at least kiss a guy on NY Eve?
I've been writing more. Now I'm organizing what I've got into something coherent. I'ts a lot of work, but feels good. I've got like 120,000 words, easy. That will make for easy editing, I think.
I skimmed over that article you sent and am looking forward to reading it when I go back to reading mode. I got through phases. Days of non-stop writing. Days of reading/thinking. Days of fuck it, I'm not doing shit.
I need a laugh. Written any good blogs lately? You really ought to start on a book. It will rock, Kelly. You know it.
--Sarah
Well, I had delayed writing, thinking you would be in Japan. I am flabbergasted that you had to lose out on $1300 on your ticket. That's like a whole month's salary. I guess you didn't get a refundable ticket. Holy crap. Yes, I think Stef might just be a cunt face afterall.
Yes, the court filings are a pain in the ass, but aren't there pro bono legal aides there to help? I did a year's worth of reserach to file all my post-conviction stuff. Good luck. and what a total douche for suing for $4m. Come on. If he lied about having cash, then his name is not worth $4m. That's just greed and opportunistic assholism. At least you know it is unjustified. Can't you and the website guy hook up to share the court filings? Since you are joint defendants?
I am quite amused at your constant ability to be recognized as a talented writer and yet you do so little with it to your advantage. You win random writing contests, you win oral contests, web contests, have a great blog and yes, you don't use it to support yourself. Why?
Please, please send me your NoteGuy rant. I need a laugh. Really.
Monday before Christmas the Superintendant came with a few other poeple from Administration and told me that my behavior was exemplary, that he could find ont one staff member that had anything bad to say about me, and that I wuold not be leaving lock because their security is not up to par and he doesn't feel comfortable putting me in population. So I remain locked in a room. Maybe for 3 months. Maybe for 6 months. In the meantime, my consolation is that i was given a cross stitch project to work on and extra time out of my room a few days a week to work on it. They say they are working on other things, better changes. In the meantime, punish, punish, punish. Sorry, we are guards of DOC who can't guard you, Sarah. That's government for you.
So that was really fucking depressing and I spent the next five days laying in bed, reading spy novels, sleeping and getting off. Fuck it. I was on staycation.
Mom and her boyfriend came to visit on Christmas morning and then I saw her again on New Year's Day. I hated it when staff members ask me, "How was your Christmas?" or "what did you do for New Year's?" Are you fucking serious? "Well, Christmas was great, just me, mom, John and the Lady Bug, chillin with Jesus. Then New Year's Eve I set up an altar and did a good magic spell to make you bastards stop punishing me. Is it working yet?
They'd keep me for another six months, easy.
Did you at least kiss a guy on NY Eve?
I've been writing more. Now I'm organizing what I've got into something coherent. I'ts a lot of work, but feels good. I've got like 120,000 words, easy. That will make for easy editing, I think.
I skimmed over that article you sent and am looking forward to reading it when I go back to reading mode. I got through phases. Days of non-stop writing. Days of reading/thinking. Days of fuck it, I'm not doing shit.
I need a laugh. Written any good blogs lately? You really ought to start on a book. It will rock, Kelly. You know it.
--Sarah
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Letters from the Inside, Barton Corbin, #3
I recently read an article in Mother Jones magazine about how an idea to improve prisons is to give prisoners actual jobs. I can't find the exact article but it discussed having prisoners work to do something "green" like raising bees or doing some sort of farming. It also talked abour prisoner resources like www.pen.org which I found fascinating. I think that art should come out of whatever dire and horrific circumstances. Something awful happens, whether you do it or it is done to you, and there should be a move to make something artistic out of it. Take all that bad energy and try to rework it into something beautiful. So I sent this article to the inmates I write to and this letter from Barton Corbin is in response to that letter.
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Hey Kelly,
Thank you for the article. I think it is just another example of reason and common sense being applied to a situation instead of relying on initial emotional response and biases. There are few opportunities for positive expeirence in the Georgia DOC, especially at the institution that I am in now. What is offered here is more religious based self-help programs and GEDs, no technical or trade instruction. [Ed.: Bart is a dentist by trade.] My understanding is that some is offered in other institutions but is really rationed for those with little time or time left. Georgia fancies itself the "buckle' of the bible belt and acts accordingly. It is truly a "poser" system. I am told we are the only or one of the only state remaining that fails to pay something to its prisoners. The industries here are not subject to fair trade practices, etc. We are not talking about a lot of money here; just a small amount to make someone a little comfortable and not be such a burden on their supporters. That has a dramatic effect on the self-esteem of inmates and decreases the incident of security concerns for there are less times of stealing; strong-arm robbery, gang attack, attack on officers, etc. We just had another prisoner beat to death by inmates the other day. I know that is 2 if not 3 in the last 3-4 months. The guy was a historical mental health case and warnings were given. There is a huge mental health population in the system where they are dumped. Overcrowding is a, and was prior, a serious convern and is more so now with the closings of more prisons, jails and transition centers due to the economic situation. Some were old and should have been closed long before, but Georgia abhors letting people be released early (or at all) and just pay the fines charged them by the Feds because it is cheaper than correcting the problem. I am in a new building now and it already violates occupancy standards.
I, as you know, work in the optical department. the staff there really has no concept of running a business. They are now nickel and diming all these little ares to increase production that will have minimal effect on the present levels. One hs to 1) increase accounts and 2) pay prisoners. They have lost contracts with the other states DOCs for that reason. Georgia always thinks everyone else is wrong, but if I had 49 witnesses against and 1 for, they would laugh me out of a courtroom. One rule of capitalism is you will not accomplish efficiency or innovation through a coerced work force. This is simply warehousing prisoners for a per-head dollar count for the industrial/prison complex. No real change occurs in an area unless their pocket books are effected. That's true here. Not only that, we are not credited good time or provided special priveleges either, as that article said, boredom is the worst thing about being in prison. There is so much wasted man-power in prison due to "catch-all" excuses like "logistics" and "security" that could be put to good use on self-sustaining cost-cutting and public works projects while still providing training for alternatives for people who will be released.
Even if one is of a "lock 'em and throw away the key" mentality, they have to know that at least 80% of the population is being released at some time, as that prisons stated, do you want a stronger, smarter, angrier criminal or someone who can avoid being a ward of the state? When they removed the college courses and ceased allowing inmates with consideration there on details outside the gates, they were penny-wise and dollar ignorant. No consideration is really given to behaviorial and institutional history. There is no incentive, besides authority's abuse, to do right. That's why these young kids are so crazy in here now. The fed pays well. As soon as you tell these populace "Ok, but we'll have to raise taxes for more prisons, etc." they say "oh no." They are like children; have your cake and eat it too.
With the new emphasis Obama has made on environmental and renewable energies programs, now is the time to institute these things to insure employability and reduce repeat offenders. Holding people as long as you can is not justice or good sense and hiding behind God without practicing the doctrines is a fraud. But such is the game here, what is also hypocritical is that for the most part you are given no relief for the faith initiative programs. that are recognized. "Mercy for me, justice on everyone else." is the philosophy practiced here, or the church rosters till the camera stops rolling.
Again, I am opinionated. But honest to a fault. I'll quit here. I hope you are doing well and that things are coming together. May your trip have been a good one, too.
Bart
***
Hey Kelly,
Thank you for the article. I think it is just another example of reason and common sense being applied to a situation instead of relying on initial emotional response and biases. There are few opportunities for positive expeirence in the Georgia DOC, especially at the institution that I am in now. What is offered here is more religious based self-help programs and GEDs, no technical or trade instruction. [Ed.: Bart is a dentist by trade.] My understanding is that some is offered in other institutions but is really rationed for those with little time or time left. Georgia fancies itself the "buckle' of the bible belt and acts accordingly. It is truly a "poser" system. I am told we are the only or one of the only state remaining that fails to pay something to its prisoners. The industries here are not subject to fair trade practices, etc. We are not talking about a lot of money here; just a small amount to make someone a little comfortable and not be such a burden on their supporters. That has a dramatic effect on the self-esteem of inmates and decreases the incident of security concerns for there are less times of stealing; strong-arm robbery, gang attack, attack on officers, etc. We just had another prisoner beat to death by inmates the other day. I know that is 2 if not 3 in the last 3-4 months. The guy was a historical mental health case and warnings were given. There is a huge mental health population in the system where they are dumped. Overcrowding is a, and was prior, a serious convern and is more so now with the closings of more prisons, jails and transition centers due to the economic situation. Some were old and should have been closed long before, but Georgia abhors letting people be released early (or at all) and just pay the fines charged them by the Feds because it is cheaper than correcting the problem. I am in a new building now and it already violates occupancy standards.
I, as you know, work in the optical department. the staff there really has no concept of running a business. They are now nickel and diming all these little ares to increase production that will have minimal effect on the present levels. One hs to 1) increase accounts and 2) pay prisoners. They have lost contracts with the other states DOCs for that reason. Georgia always thinks everyone else is wrong, but if I had 49 witnesses against and 1 for, they would laugh me out of a courtroom. One rule of capitalism is you will not accomplish efficiency or innovation through a coerced work force. This is simply warehousing prisoners for a per-head dollar count for the industrial/prison complex. No real change occurs in an area unless their pocket books are effected. That's true here. Not only that, we are not credited good time or provided special priveleges either, as that article said, boredom is the worst thing about being in prison. There is so much wasted man-power in prison due to "catch-all" excuses like "logistics" and "security" that could be put to good use on self-sustaining cost-cutting and public works projects while still providing training for alternatives for people who will be released.
Even if one is of a "lock 'em and throw away the key" mentality, they have to know that at least 80% of the population is being released at some time, as that prisons stated, do you want a stronger, smarter, angrier criminal or someone who can avoid being a ward of the state? When they removed the college courses and ceased allowing inmates with consideration there on details outside the gates, they were penny-wise and dollar ignorant. No consideration is really given to behaviorial and institutional history. There is no incentive, besides authority's abuse, to do right. That's why these young kids are so crazy in here now. The fed pays well. As soon as you tell these populace "Ok, but we'll have to raise taxes for more prisons, etc." they say "oh no." They are like children; have your cake and eat it too.
With the new emphasis Obama has made on environmental and renewable energies programs, now is the time to institute these things to insure employability and reduce repeat offenders. Holding people as long as you can is not justice or good sense and hiding behind God without practicing the doctrines is a fraud. But such is the game here, what is also hypocritical is that for the most part you are given no relief for the faith initiative programs. that are recognized. "Mercy for me, justice on everyone else." is the philosophy practiced here, or the church rosters till the camera stops rolling.
Again, I am opinionated. But honest to a fault. I'll quit here. I hope you are doing well and that things are coming together. May your trip have been a good one, too.
Bart
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Letters from the Inside, Justin Barber, #1
A while ago a repeat of a 48 Hours Mystery aired about a man who was walking on a secluded beach in FL with his wife and a mysterious gunman shot him four times and killed his wife. I found the guy really attractive, but they are saying he is sociopath who planned the whole thing, going so far as to research how to shoot yourself and not have any serious injuries. There is something in this guy's manner that reminds me so much of John. I had a friend and fellow ODer watch the show (It's available on Youtube in parts --and the transcript of the show is in writing on the 48 Hour Site) and she said it was really clear to her from the start he was lying.
Check them out and tell me what you think.
Anyway, I wrote to him and he has just responded.
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Hi Kelly,
I hope you're well and enjoying the new year. Thanks for writing. Mail call is one of the few bright spots of prison life. At least it is when you actually receive some mail. The holidays are difficult here, and your card was a pleasant surprise.
I haven't seen the 48 Hour Mystery episode you mentioned; nor have I read the transcripts of that show or any of the others. From what family and friends have told me, 48 Hours was probably the most balanced of all the shows. Which is to say that they only portrayed me as a monster for half the episode. Sensationalism drives television ratings and ratings drive ad revenue. But understanding the motives behind my villification doesn't comfort me at all. The unembellished truth (and seeing my deepest character flaws clearly) is difficult enough to come to terms with. I'm an adulturer and womanizer. Maybe a binge drinker. I'm insecure for all the wrong reasons, yet I'm also overconfident for all the wrong reasons. But I'm not a murderer. I'm not a sociopath. Being a self-centered jack-ass is bad enough--I can't take credit for anything more sensational than that. I will say that the 48 Hour production crew treated my family well, especially my grandparents, and I'm thankful for that.
Being a farm boy from Oklahoma, NYC has always fascinated me. Perhaps if you write again, you'll share some of the stories from your blog that depicts life in the City. do you find it difficult to sleep when so much is happening all the time? I'm also interested to know what particular Seinfeld episodes you have been trapped in. Cramer is my favorite character, of course. I'ts been years since I've seen a Seinfeld episode. "I'm out there, Jerry, and I'm loving every minute of it." Remember the one where Cramer goes commando? I have a friend who seems to relate every event in her life to a Seinfeld episode and your comment triggered a happy memory. Thanks.
Feel free to write again. You're much better company than that which I've grown accustomed to in recent years.
Justin
Check them out and tell me what you think.
Anyway, I wrote to him and he has just responded.
***
Hi Kelly,
I hope you're well and enjoying the new year. Thanks for writing. Mail call is one of the few bright spots of prison life. At least it is when you actually receive some mail. The holidays are difficult here, and your card was a pleasant surprise.
I haven't seen the 48 Hour Mystery episode you mentioned; nor have I read the transcripts of that show or any of the others. From what family and friends have told me, 48 Hours was probably the most balanced of all the shows. Which is to say that they only portrayed me as a monster for half the episode. Sensationalism drives television ratings and ratings drive ad revenue. But understanding the motives behind my villification doesn't comfort me at all. The unembellished truth (and seeing my deepest character flaws clearly) is difficult enough to come to terms with. I'm an adulturer and womanizer. Maybe a binge drinker. I'm insecure for all the wrong reasons, yet I'm also overconfident for all the wrong reasons. But I'm not a murderer. I'm not a sociopath. Being a self-centered jack-ass is bad enough--I can't take credit for anything more sensational than that. I will say that the 48 Hour production crew treated my family well, especially my grandparents, and I'm thankful for that.
Being a farm boy from Oklahoma, NYC has always fascinated me. Perhaps if you write again, you'll share some of the stories from your blog that depicts life in the City. do you find it difficult to sleep when so much is happening all the time? I'm also interested to know what particular Seinfeld episodes you have been trapped in. Cramer is my favorite character, of course. I'ts been years since I've seen a Seinfeld episode. "I'm out there, Jerry, and I'm loving every minute of it." Remember the one where Cramer goes commando? I have a friend who seems to relate every event in her life to a Seinfeld episode and your comment triggered a happy memory. Thanks.
Feel free to write again. You're much better company than that which I've grown accustomed to in recent years.
Justin
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Letters from the Inside, Michael Swango, #70
My Dear KK--
So much to write...so little time...not unusual in my world just before a holiday weekend, but even more so this Christmas 09.
I had planned on writing you a long letter over the long weekend---and that hasn't changed: Much to discuss from your photo-filled letter [My God, I love your eyes Kelly] written on your Saturday after your tripto the "East Harlem Costco" Included your trip to the Guggenheims First Friday/plus your comments on "Hallelujah" (Leonard Cohen / Jeff Buckley.)
I have more to say on the astonishing words/lyrics.
If a book was ever to be written, it would have to be complete AND written with an organized, detail-oriented, slightly (?!!) OCD type like yourself. Again-more on that letter over the weekend-promise...
My mind is an encyclopedic index of useless Seinfeld trivia lines & entire conversations: As I write this is what comes to mind: The episode in which Gale Cunningham, who snubbed Jerry and is now dating Kramer, is working as a sous chef at a Manhattan restaurant. She gushes over Elaine's Botticelli shoes - later demanding the shoes for doing a favor. Somehow I picture you in the booth/mentioning your Fri/ and Gale Cunningham: "Look at you--the Guggenheim! Lah-de-dah--I'm afraid to even go in there. Kelly out on the town- LAH-DE-DAH!
Sooo, Kelly: Then earlier today I received your drama-filled "THANK-U-GRAM" [Seems vintage/is it?} Wow! My life is an ongoing drama heavy on the past but yours! KK!!! Tokyo/no Tokyo/friend/no friend/child paternity-custody-legal-nightmare-and you somehow involved...plus NoteGuy/no NoteGuy...and even more...
So I felt compelled to get a letter off to you before the long weekend-since you will clearly be in NYC over the holiday. Sorry about that for you Tokyo, Japan would be a great escape...The title of an "ER" episode from the mid-90s come to mind [taken from Shakespeare I believe]: "MAN PLANS, GOD LAUGHS!!
Will address your letter just received plus the earlier one, plus some other things to share with you--when I have more time. This has to go out quite soon. So let me hit a few points in bullet point fashion:
>Yes, do send the commentary on your rant.
>And for God's sake, KK, SEND THE RANT: You can send it. It's OK. Thank you.
>As I suspected, you are familiar with Ms. Stout's book. I thought you might be, given your avid interest in the subject.
My apologies for the article being cut-off. Forgot to mention that which I usually do. That portion of the magazine was missing.
FYI: The article was from that large glossy magazine: "INTERVIEW" so with that info you should be able to locate the full text.
I think Ms. Stout has some things correct. Again. comments to follow.
>Also received the article "Green Mile". Will read & comment.
>Must briefly say something about Brittany Murphy. I barely knew who she was until I saw her in "Don't Say A Word" -- where she co-starred with Michael Douglas. I thought she was absolutely brilliant in that role. To me it was a breakout role--heavy & serious. but Holly did not seem to agree...
-And her eyes were mesmerizing. She had "look" that was unique.
Anyway, - another Hollywood tragedy. Like Heath Ledger, her best work was ahead of her...
>Regarding those two books I mentioned-asking you to find out (if you can) when they will be released in PAPERBACK. I have both authors now: THE KINDLY ONES by Jonathan Littel (translated by French) WETLANDS by Charlotte Roche.
>Enclosed: fascinating "Mumblecore" article from a Times fashion supplement--so you may have seen it. I learned a few things.
So Kelly, you're had a helluva month to be sure. I'm not a big one for holiday cheer--but DO have a good a Christmas & New Years as possible . May I suggest your best girlfriends movie marathons and come wanton taboo sex if possible?!
Do send the "rant" and the comments/and I will fully explore the many subjects outstanding from your letters.
Cam you handle some comments on lyrics in "Hallelujah?"
Leave you, with two things:
>Lady Gaga channels Alfred Hitchcock in her song "Bad Romance".
>Question: Why do gay men & straight woman share such an (at times) intense bond? Give me your reasoning. IMine will make my shy correspondent blush-but will tell you'll allow it.
Take care--and write again soon.
Yours XOXO,
Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, etc. etc.
P.S. Vampire Diaries on CW...Yeah I know..
So much to write...so little time...not unusual in my world just before a holiday weekend, but even more so this Christmas 09.
I had planned on writing you a long letter over the long weekend---and that hasn't changed: Much to discuss from your photo-filled letter [My God, I love your eyes Kelly] written on your Saturday after your tripto the "East Harlem Costco" Included your trip to the Guggenheims First Friday/plus your comments on "Hallelujah" (Leonard Cohen / Jeff Buckley.)
I have more to say on the astonishing words/lyrics.
If a book was ever to be written, it would have to be complete AND written with an organized, detail-oriented, slightly (?!!) OCD type like yourself. Again-more on that letter over the weekend-promise...
My mind is an encyclopedic index of useless Seinfeld trivia lines & entire conversations: As I write this is what comes to mind: The episode in which Gale Cunningham, who snubbed Jerry and is now dating Kramer, is working as a sous chef at a Manhattan restaurant. She gushes over Elaine's Botticelli shoes - later demanding the shoes for doing a favor. Somehow I picture you in the booth/mentioning your Fri/ and Gale Cunningham: "Look at you--the Guggenheim! Lah-de-dah--I'm afraid to even go in there. Kelly out on the town- LAH-DE-DAH!
Sooo, Kelly: Then earlier today I received your drama-filled "THANK-U-GRAM" [Seems vintage/is it?} Wow! My life is an ongoing drama heavy on the past but yours! KK!!! Tokyo/no Tokyo/friend/no friend/child paternity-custody-legal-nightmare-and you somehow involved...plus NoteGuy/no NoteGuy...and even more...
So I felt compelled to get a letter off to you before the long weekend-since you will clearly be in NYC over the holiday. Sorry about that for you Tokyo, Japan would be a great escape...The title of an "ER" episode from the mid-90s come to mind [taken from Shakespeare I believe]: "MAN PLANS, GOD LAUGHS!!
Will address your letter just received plus the earlier one, plus some other things to share with you--when I have more time. This has to go out quite soon. So let me hit a few points in bullet point fashion:
>Yes, do send the commentary on your rant.
>And for God's sake, KK, SEND THE RANT: You can send it. It's OK. Thank you.
>As I suspected, you are familiar with Ms. Stout's book. I thought you might be, given your avid interest in the subject.
My apologies for the article being cut-off. Forgot to mention that which I usually do. That portion of the magazine was missing.
FYI: The article was from that large glossy magazine: "INTERVIEW" so with that info you should be able to locate the full text.
I think Ms. Stout has some things correct. Again. comments to follow.
>Also received the article "Green Mile". Will read & comment.
>Must briefly say something about Brittany Murphy. I barely knew who she was until I saw her in "Don't Say A Word" -- where she co-starred with Michael Douglas. I thought she was absolutely brilliant in that role. To me it was a breakout role--heavy & serious. but Holly did not seem to agree...
-And her eyes were mesmerizing. She had "look" that was unique.
Anyway, - another Hollywood tragedy. Like Heath Ledger, her best work was ahead of her...
>Regarding those two books I mentioned-asking you to find out (if you can) when they will be released in PAPERBACK. I have both authors now: THE KINDLY ONES by Jonathan Littel (translated by French) WETLANDS by Charlotte Roche.
>Enclosed: fascinating "Mumblecore" article from a Times fashion supplement--so you may have seen it. I learned a few things.
So Kelly, you're had a helluva month to be sure. I'm not a big one for holiday cheer--but DO have a good a Christmas & New Years as possible . May I suggest your best girlfriends movie marathons and come wanton taboo sex if possible?!
Do send the "rant" and the comments/and I will fully explore the many subjects outstanding from your letters.
Cam you handle some comments on lyrics in "Hallelujah?"
Leave you, with two things:
>Lady Gaga channels Alfred Hitchcock in her song "Bad Romance".
>Question: Why do gay men & straight woman share such an (at times) intense bond? Give me your reasoning. IMine will make my shy correspondent blush-but will tell you'll allow it.
Take care--and write again soon.
Yours XOXO,
Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, etc. etc.
P.S. Vampire Diaries on CW...Yeah I know..
