This one answers my questions about how he feels about his incarceration.
Dear KK---
Scheherazade*, Stephen King, and an unknown but insightful disabled man...let me try to link these together to try to begin to explain how one adapts & adjusts psychologically & day-to-day with a total change in ones life, such as my situation...
Sometime in the late 80s or early 90s, before this, before Africa, I saw a remarkable interview with a man who had been paralyzed in a car accident at the age of 17 (from the waist down). When interviewed he was about 40 y.o. He of course talked about the accident, his initial awful realizations, his rehab, etc. --but most of all [and the focus of the interview] he talked about how he learned and struggled & finally succeeded in remaking his life-more importantly his inner vision of life-into something compatible with his devastating physical injury and permanent disability. He talked about how, since his injury [ about 23 years previously] he had met many many men & women & teens who were in the same condition, or worse. And those who had succeeded in rebuilding their life view to take into account their condition were far, far happier, and engaged in lie to a much greater degree. I recall that he quoted Dylan Thomas's famous lines about "Not Going Gently Into That Good Night...Rage, Rage Against the Dying of the Light."
He said that was fine for a life or death struggle--but when you rage & bitch about a wheelchair, no matter how long, at some point you realize you're still in the chair, you're not dead, and you'd "best just get on with it." And that's what he did.
He said that he met many people his own age---who had also been paralyzed as teens--and again, those how had been able to accept their situation and build on it, rather than curse fate & God & humanity & bad luck for 20+ years, were much happier & more productive --employment, family, health, in general.
Ok-put that aside for just a moment. You & I have both mentioned [independently, I find that fascinating...] the tragic suicide of the son of Sylvia Plath-and the pathos & brutal irony that that engenders. Not sure if you saw or heard word of the death by suicide of another major female poet on 10 APRIL: "Deborah Digges"- who jumped to her death at a stadium at U-MASS in Amhearst, MASS. Age 59.
I remember reading her first collection: Vesper Sparrows/in the mid-1980s. Sort of lost track of her after that, but would hear her name on occasion in literary reviews, etc.
I mentioned this because the choice so many [far too many] men & women make between life & death is not so different (of course it is in degree) than the choice one makes when faced with a life-changing illness or injury/or sudden loss of a lifetime job or/partner/or incarceration.
Look at the recent spate of multiple murders/suicides in families by men who have lost all hope after being hit hard by the current recession: 4 dead Maryland/5 dead in California. These men were not paralyzed or incarcerated; yet, that was the choice they made...
In his late 90s novel, Bag of Bones, Stephen King wrote about a man who had just lost his wife-and who was of course devastated, depressed, and ultimately contemplates suicide. What stops him is what Stephen King calls "What comes next?" It's impossible to recount his brilliant analysis in full, but it simply boils down to this: A man or woman usually won't end their life if they become interested or curious in "What happens next?" Whether it's the next chapter of a book, the next episode of "LOST", will Erica come out of her coma on "General Hospital"?...will it be Obama or Hillary? Will it be Obama or McCain? OK--how will those first hundred days turn out? Will GM go into bankruptcy? Will the Cubs finally win a World Series? My dog is pregnant-will her puppies be OK? ...a friend is getting married--what will the wedding be like? Should I go or kill myself?
All this sounds incredibly self-evident to you or I or millions of other people - because everyday we wake up with all the above and more-much more-on our minds...percolating, simmering...we wonder & look ahead because that's what people do. Of course self evident.
But in the days or hours or minutes before that final irrevocable act, whether caused by chemical depression, intense grief, economic helplessness, the loss or breakup of a man or woman--the suicidal individual DOES NOT ask himself/herself "What comes next?" Because in their mind, nothing comes next...nothing...
In the Arabian Nights, the lovely Scheherazade is sentence to die at dawn. To survive she tells a story...and at dawn the King essentially asks "What Comes Next?" So the execution is put off; and the next night she does the same-for 1001 nights-until finally she is pardoned.
Not suicide-but the point is the same. Death forestalled by "What Comes Next?"
The whole purpose of the class of anti-depression drugs known as the "Serotonin Uptake Inhibitors" is to increase serotonin in the brain and get the depressed person interested in something/anything - so long as they again begin to ask: "What Comes Next?"
It's now Wednesday. It takes longer to write a letter like this one than many of my previous ones! But I have no problem discussing such intense or difficult subjects. You are one of the few people I know who seems genuinely interested & engaged in virtually all things.
So-this is just a beginning to the answers to the questions you have asked about my incarceration. How I have been able to adjust my life view and remain intensely & vibrantly engaged in all things is clearly a whole other letter or letters. I will tell you it partly involves Marcus Aurelius, Stoicism, and the concept and actuality of building a "memory palace" in one's mind. Lots to talk about, and I promise to get it all, and anything else you wish to delve into--briefly or in detail, even intimate detail, although you seem a bit averse & skittish....
But must get this in the mail. Still want to comment a bit on your "Angelina Jolie of India" article AND the one about shopping for jeans (very funny!) - and a few other things from your last letter.
In the meantime-ran across these items I thought you might find of interest.
>Very favorable review of the beginning of Season II of "IN TREATMENT". Since I can't see this, you'll have to keep me updated.
:-) Thanks!
>Local review of "THE INFORMERS". None have been very favorable that I have seen or heard.
>A friend in the financial world sent me this column on another "B. Madoff." it's from the "N.Y. Times" (March), so you may well have seen/read it.
Take care, KK. Will try to write more (as above) tomorrow. Hope you enjoyed what I understand was some outstanding NYC weather the last couple of days. Be well and write soon.
Yours,
Michael
*One of the most mysterious & beautiful names...you recall our earlier conversation... I mentioned Edna St. Vincent Millay; which would be even more lovely as Charlotte or Skyler or Elisha.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
Letters from the Inside, Michael Swango, #14
Dear KK---
Hi. When last we spoke, I believe I was trying to defend the brilliant but much-maligned films of M. Night Shyamalan! Curious about your more detailed opinions of both "The Village" and "Unbreakable".
More on films to begin this letter. A couple of months ago I did see a brief review of "Donkey Punch". It was unclear whether it was deadly serious or a black comedy. What a surprise--the girls want to report the homicide, the guys want to dump the body and party on! However, that film reminded me of one I have seen--a pitch black comedy from 998:
"VERY BAD THINGS" starring Christian Slater/Cameron Diaz/Jeanne Triplehorn/Jon Favreau/Jeremy Piven/Leland Orser [actually, fairly impressive cast]: "Black - make that really black-comedy about a guy who goes to Las Vegas with four pals for a bachelor party. The scene turns ugly very fast [i.e.-a dead hooker], leaving the friends to deal with a couple of crimes and raging guilt-as the wedding draws nearer. Extreme, to say the least, but true to its dark mandate, which is awfully grim."
Quite a film to say the least.
I continue to read & hear positive things about "LYMELIFE". I'm a big Alex Baldwin fan [he's brilliantly funny in "30 Rock"]. And I noticed that Jill Hennessey is in the film as well. She's more well-known for TV: 90s Law & Order and that show where she played a medical examiner [title escapes me]. Will be curious to read your "KK Review."
I heard a review [by the "At the Movies" duo on TV] of "THE SOLOIST" -- based on the true-story film with Robert Downey, Jr. and Jamie Foxx about the newspaper reporter and the homeless cello prodigy. "Too maudlin, too stereotypical, and too many musical montages."
But like all reviews, I take it with a grain of salt. However, I did notice that it co-stars one of my favorite actresses: Catherine Keener (we could easily do two pages on her films.) --Being John Malkovich ++
They also reviewed "Every Little Step", although I wonder how many times "Chorus Line" can be repackaged....
And our boy Mickey Rourke has a supporting role in "THE INFORMERS", based on Bret Easton Ellis's 1994 novel. They hated it. Period. Not surprising--everything by Mr. Ellis is definitely an acquired taste. I'll wait for more info. What is the verdict in New York?
Two more film items:
>I think I saw "The Drowning Pool" with Paul Newman as a private eye (?) before I came here.
>You mentioned Fred Durst's directorial debut a few weeks ago; so I thought you might be familiar with a film I know only from its pay-cable listing:
"POPULATION 436": starring Jeremy Sisto and Fred Durst/"A census-taker investigates why a town's population never changes. Intriguing premise-let me know if you've seen it or known any more about it. *Thanks
***
When you check out Ms. Arbus' photographs, let me know if you see that photo of the family with 12 daughters. By all means print out a few of her more striking photos when you are able and send them. Thank you.
With your "catching up" on HBO, and your mention of James Gandolfini in the Broadway show [God of Carnage], I must mention Marcia Gay Harden is also in God of Carnage. She had a pretty good role as a corporate atty in the just-completed Second Season of "DAMAGES" on FX.
"The Sopranos" I wasn't able to see it until it showed up on A&E, and I must say it lived up to all the hype & glory. As you note so often--it is the outstanding writing that makes it great. Currently they are showing (finally) the final season-leading up to that infamous "blackout" ending.
You could teach a college seminar on "The Sopranos" --so many nuances & levels of understanding...
Given all the coincidences leading up to your dating Eric Schaeffer: If it were a romantic comedy you two would be together today! Thirteen years, etc., etc. Most interesting to say the least. Especially your involvement with the show.
Do send me a brief (or longer) review/commentary on his Showtime series "I Can't Believe I'm Still Single..." It sounds like the male version of your column & blog. "STARVED" was so good. So different/and again--pushed the "basic cable" envelope even for FX. If you ever talk to him or message him--tell him to get another season of that show!
Thank you for the very funny Woody Allen "essay" on Madoff & the lobsters {"I had to wait half an hour to jump, I was twelfth in line."] Obviously we could talk for hours on Woody Allen's films--but although I know he has written quite a bit, I've not read any of his books. If this sis a fair sample, I should definitely add him to my lengthy reading list...
This has already run into Friday-so let me wrap this up. However, I have more to write over the weekend-regarding my situation here, etc., etc. I will start with that so as not to get engrossed in the myriad of fascinating topics you constantly bring up!
Have enclosed an article reprinted from the New York Times--so you may have already seen it. That photo of Denzel is a real shocker. Your thoughts? [Ed.: He is referencing Denzel's weight gain.]
Again, will write more over the weekend. Stay safe & stay well. Take care, KK
Yours,
Michael
Hi. When last we spoke, I believe I was trying to defend the brilliant but much-maligned films of M. Night Shyamalan! Curious about your more detailed opinions of both "The Village" and "Unbreakable".
More on films to begin this letter. A couple of months ago I did see a brief review of "Donkey Punch". It was unclear whether it was deadly serious or a black comedy. What a surprise--the girls want to report the homicide, the guys want to dump the body and party on! However, that film reminded me of one I have seen--a pitch black comedy from 998:
"VERY BAD THINGS" starring Christian Slater/Cameron Diaz/Jeanne Triplehorn/Jon Favreau/Jeremy Piven/Leland Orser [actually, fairly impressive cast]: "Black - make that really black-comedy about a guy who goes to Las Vegas with four pals for a bachelor party. The scene turns ugly very fast [i.e.-a dead hooker], leaving the friends to deal with a couple of crimes and raging guilt-as the wedding draws nearer. Extreme, to say the least, but true to its dark mandate, which is awfully grim."
Quite a film to say the least.
I continue to read & hear positive things about "LYMELIFE". I'm a big Alex Baldwin fan [he's brilliantly funny in "30 Rock"]. And I noticed that Jill Hennessey is in the film as well. She's more well-known for TV: 90s Law & Order and that show where she played a medical examiner [title escapes me]. Will be curious to read your "KK Review."
I heard a review [by the "At the Movies" duo on TV] of "THE SOLOIST" -- based on the true-story film with Robert Downey, Jr. and Jamie Foxx about the newspaper reporter and the homeless cello prodigy. "Too maudlin, too stereotypical, and too many musical montages."
But like all reviews, I take it with a grain of salt. However, I did notice that it co-stars one of my favorite actresses: Catherine Keener (we could easily do two pages on her films.) --Being John Malkovich ++
They also reviewed "Every Little Step", although I wonder how many times "Chorus Line" can be repackaged....
And our boy Mickey Rourke has a supporting role in "THE INFORMERS", based on Bret Easton Ellis's 1994 novel. They hated it. Period. Not surprising--everything by Mr. Ellis is definitely an acquired taste. I'll wait for more info. What is the verdict in New York?
Two more film items:
>I think I saw "The Drowning Pool" with Paul Newman as a private eye (?) before I came here.
>You mentioned Fred Durst's directorial debut a few weeks ago; so I thought you might be familiar with a film I know only from its pay-cable listing:
"POPULATION 436": starring Jeremy Sisto and Fred Durst/"A census-taker investigates why a town's population never changes. Intriguing premise-let me know if you've seen it or known any more about it. *Thanks
***
When you check out Ms. Arbus' photographs, let me know if you see that photo of the family with 12 daughters. By all means print out a few of her more striking photos when you are able and send them. Thank you.
With your "catching up" on HBO, and your mention of James Gandolfini in the Broadway show [God of Carnage], I must mention Marcia Gay Harden is also in God of Carnage. She had a pretty good role as a corporate atty in the just-completed Second Season of "DAMAGES" on FX.
"The Sopranos" I wasn't able to see it until it showed up on A&E, and I must say it lived up to all the hype & glory. As you note so often--it is the outstanding writing that makes it great. Currently they are showing (finally) the final season-leading up to that infamous "blackout" ending.
You could teach a college seminar on "The Sopranos" --so many nuances & levels of understanding...
Given all the coincidences leading up to your dating Eric Schaeffer: If it were a romantic comedy you two would be together today! Thirteen years, etc., etc. Most interesting to say the least. Especially your involvement with the show.
Do send me a brief (or longer) review/commentary on his Showtime series "I Can't Believe I'm Still Single..." It sounds like the male version of your column & blog. "STARVED" was so good. So different/and again--pushed the "basic cable" envelope even for FX. If you ever talk to him or message him--tell him to get another season of that show!
Thank you for the very funny Woody Allen "essay" on Madoff & the lobsters {"I had to wait half an hour to jump, I was twelfth in line."] Obviously we could talk for hours on Woody Allen's films--but although I know he has written quite a bit, I've not read any of his books. If this sis a fair sample, I should definitely add him to my lengthy reading list...
This has already run into Friday-so let me wrap this up. However, I have more to write over the weekend-regarding my situation here, etc., etc. I will start with that so as not to get engrossed in the myriad of fascinating topics you constantly bring up!
Have enclosed an article reprinted from the New York Times--so you may have already seen it. That photo of Denzel is a real shocker. Your thoughts? [Ed.: He is referencing Denzel's weight gain.]
Again, will write more over the weekend. Stay safe & stay well
Yours,
Michael
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Thomas Bart Whitaker on 20/20
You can watch the whole 45-minute show and see Bart talk about how he ended up on Death Row here: 20/20
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Letters from the Inside, Michael Swango, #13
Dear KK---
Hi. I have your letter written last weekend. And it is very hard to imagine you having a weekend with nothing planned! Are you sure there was not a break in the Space/Time Continuum over New York City-sort of a "Ghostbusters" situation! Very curious to hear your thoughts on "I've Loved You So Long" as well as Kristin Scott Thomas's performance.
And to return your surprise at seeing my mention of that film; I felt the same way when I saw you mention the Diane Arbus <
u> purported biopic "FUR" . I will definitely cross that film off my list!
Thank You, Thank You! When you like M. Night Shyamalan's films, it is easy to believe you are alone in the universe. [I picture big-eyed alien critics panning his films on Alpha Centauri & beyond...]. While I have more important topics to discuss with you from your letter [I will discuss more on the subject of incarceration, psychology, etc., I promise--and I appreciate you realizing that I can't discuss everything or go into certain details...]
I must say a few things about M. Night Shymalan's films: (For some reason, it seems necessary to say all three name when referencing the director.)
>The criticism of "THE VILLAGE" probably surprised me the most. Maybe I was just a dim bulb that day, but I was stunned by the surprise twist: when Bryce Dallas Howard climbed over that wall into the 21st Century! If there were "obvious" clues I certainly missed them. Talk about a transformative moment in a film.
One capsule summary says the film "evolves into a self-parody at some point before becoming downright ridiculous." KK-I simply fail to understand where the brutal criticism comes from.
> "THE SIXTH SENSE" : His first major* film and, of course, highly praised. A couple of years ago I had a chance to watch it late at night when I could give it my full attention: And watching carefully-you see that the "ghost" of Bruce Willis never touches any of the people so as to defy the illusion that he is a ghost. It's very subtle--but as you realize how deftly M. Night Shyamalan manages to pull it off--you become increasingly impressed.
* Did you see his first film, "WIDE AWAKE" filmed in 1995 & released in 1998-a year before "The Sixth Sense" (99) by his direction.
> "UNBREAKABLE" : To me, this is his true "sleeper" film. once again, I saw the film with very little preamble-so I knew very little about it, going in. A fascinating story as it went along, with Willis gradually realizing his imperviousness to harm- except drowning juxtaposed with his"opposite" : Samuel L. Jackson: afflicted with the very real disease osteogenesis imperfecta. And once again, I did not "see" the twist-that Jackson was a god-complex terrorist who was hunting for someone just like Willis.
I will tell you this, though,: On a few occasions in the news I have read or heard of disasters (train, plane, automobile, etc.) in which there was "a lone survivor apparently uninjured". And I instantly wondered if...!
> "SIGNS" was interesting the first time, but I sort of put it on his "second tier". Same with "LADY IN THE WATER" . Perhaps not his best-but not the deserving of brutal criticism it received.
I believe he has a new film in the works.
Have you hear anything about it?
I believe you have many years to look forward to past 39, KK! Clearly your energy level is that of someone age 19. Odd you should mention that though: There is a new "quirky" (hate that word) NYC cop drama called "The Unusuals" which just started (reminds me a bit of "Hill Street Blues"...) - seems promising. It start (among others) Harold Perrineau [Michael on "LOST"] as a police detective convinced he is going to die at age 42. That partially explains his insistence on wearing a bullet-proof vest every moment...
Sorry to cut this very short. Less time than I thought-and clearly I've barely scratched the surface of your brilliantly intriguing and interesting letter!
However, I must add: You dated Eric Schaeffer?!! OMG! I LOVED the F/X series "STARVED". Absolutely outstanding; unfortunately, too cutting edge even for F/X. More to say about that in my next letter, which will begin once this brief missive goes in the mail.
So take care. I'm sure after your rare unplanned weekend, the next month is filled with receptions at MOMA, the Guggenheim, Lincoln Center, and Gracie Mansion; numerous dates or more with New York's most eligible men! :) ...And of course-your cute little dog, Mini, and more movies...always more movies....
Must more to follow, KK. And send all you can when you can. Thanks!
Yours,
Michael
P.S. Congrats on Mini as Pet of the Month!
Hi. I have your letter written last weekend. And it is very hard to imagine you having a weekend with nothing planned! Are you sure there was not a break in the Space/Time Continuum over New York City-sort of a "Ghostbusters" situation! Very curious to hear your thoughts on "I've Loved You So Long" as well as Kristin Scott Thomas's performance.
And to return your surprise at seeing my mention of that film; I felt the same way when I saw you mention the Diane Arbus <
u> purported biopic "FUR" . I will definitely cross that film off my list!
Thank You, Thank You! When you like M. Night Shyamalan's films, it is easy to believe you are alone in the universe. [I picture big-eyed alien critics panning his films on Alpha Centauri & beyond...]. While I have more important topics to discuss with you from your letter [I will discuss more on the subject of incarceration, psychology, etc., I promise--and I appreciate you realizing that I can't discuss everything or go into certain details...]
I must say a few things about M. Night Shymalan's films: (For some reason, it seems necessary to say all three name when referencing the director.)
>The criticism of "THE VILLAGE" probably surprised me the most. Maybe I was just a dim bulb that day, but I was stunned by the surprise twist: when Bryce Dallas Howard climbed over that wall into the 21st Century! If there were "obvious" clues I certainly missed them. Talk about a transformative moment in a film.
One capsule summary says the film "evolves into a self-parody at some point before becoming downright ridiculous." KK-I simply fail to understand where the brutal criticism comes from.
> "THE SIXTH SENSE" : His first major* film and, of course, highly praised. A couple of years ago I had a chance to watch it late at night when I could give it my full attention: And watching carefully-you see that the "ghost" of Bruce Willis never touches any of the people so as to defy the illusion that he is a ghost. It's very subtle--but as you realize how deftly M. Night Shyamalan manages to pull it off--you become increasingly impressed.
* Did you see his first film, "WIDE AWAKE" filmed in 1995 & released in 1998-a year before "The Sixth Sense" (99) by his direction.
> "UNBREAKABLE" : To me, this is his true "sleeper" film. once again, I saw the film with very little preamble-so I knew very little about it, going in. A fascinating story as it went along, with Willis gradually realizing his imperviousness to harm- except drowning juxtaposed with his"opposite" : Samuel L. Jackson: afflicted with the very real disease osteogenesis imperfecta. And once again, I did not "see" the twist-that Jackson was a god-complex terrorist who was hunting for someone just like Willis.
I will tell you this, though,: On a few occasions in the news I have read or heard of disasters (train, plane, automobile, etc.) in which there was "a lone survivor apparently uninjured". And I instantly wondered if...!
> "SIGNS" was interesting the first time, but I sort of put it on his "second tier". Same with "LADY IN THE WATER" . Perhaps not his best-but not the deserving of brutal criticism it received.
I believe he has a new film in the works.
Have you hear anything about it?
I believe you have many years to look forward to past 39, KK! Clearly your energy level is that of someone age 19. Odd you should mention that though: There is a new "quirky" (hate that word) NYC cop drama called "The Unusuals" which just started (reminds me a bit of "Hill Street Blues"...) - seems promising. It start (among others) Harold Perrineau [Michael on "LOST"] as a police detective convinced he is going to die at age 42. That partially explains his insistence on wearing a bullet-proof vest every moment...
Sorry to cut this very short. Less time than I thought-and clearly I've barely scratched the surface of your brilliantly intriguing and interesting letter!
However, I must add: You dated Eric Schaeffer?!! OMG! I LOVED the F/X series "STARVED". Absolutely outstanding; unfortunately, too cutting edge even for F/X. More to say about that in my next letter, which will begin once this brief missive goes in the mail.
So take care. I'm sure after your rare unplanned weekend, the next month is filled with receptions at MOMA, the Guggenheim, Lincoln Center, and Gracie Mansion; numerous dates or more with New York's most eligible men! :) ...And of course-your cute little dog, Mini, and more movies...always more movies....
Must more to follow, KK. And send all you can when you can. Thanks!
Yours,
Michael
P.S. Congrats on Mini as Pet of the Month!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Letters from the Inside, Michael Swango, #12
Hi KK---
I ran across this article on Mickey Rourke and his recent brilliant role in the "Wrestler"; plus I saw it was going to be released on DVD tomorrow. So thought I would send it along to you. As you pointed out a few week ago: the contrast between the Cary Grant-like image on p. 1 vs. the stunning transformation on p. 2 is simply astounding.
As I wrote in the margin: Curious if you saw the 07 film: "Before the Devil Know You're Dead." Directed by the "venerable" Sidney Lumet, it starred Philip Seymour Hoffman & Ethan Hawke, as brothers who decide to rob a jewelry store for some easy money to pay their debts. I believe the store is run by their parents... Naturally things go from bad to worse. I did not see the film, but it looked and sounded pretty good at the time.
Today--as I'm sure the whole world knows from the media-is the tenth anniversary of Columbine. Still another U.S. place name whose mere mention conjures up violence. [Oklahoma City, Virginia Tech, Waco, ad infinitum]. It remains a huge story in Colorado. Apparently a new book by Dave Cullen shatters many of the stories that were accepted as truth for years: i.e. "trenchcoat mafia" never happened; the girl shot for saying she believed in God--never happened.
Besides the Mickey Rourke article, thought of you as well when I saw a story on the first new medication for migraines in over then years. They of course mentioned Imitrex as their current best option. Anyway---the new medication [phonetic spelling] is "TELL-CAJ-I-PAN."
According to the report, on one of the evening newscast, the new medication has shown great promise, and it attacks the root cause of migraines--believed to be a neurochemical imbalances that causes the blood vessel changes that result in migraines.
I'm sure you can google and find out more. I will tell you I have great empathy for anyone who suffers from migraines. I had a girlfriend who had them---and it was excruciating to watch her totally shut down periodically when they would hit.
TV NOTE: On last week's "LOST", I counted five different time frames: the 1) Now of the current story line which is 1977 on the island 2) Ben Linus stealing Rousseau's baby Alex in 1988/3) Ben with the growing Alex sometime in the early 90s/4) In LA before the return to 1977, which of course was = 07/5) F/B to 1974-when Sawyer & Juliette , et al began wkg for Dharma.
No one who hasn't followed the series could possibly understand these intricacies without an outline!
I ran across this film review reprinted from the Times:
"FORBIDDEN LIE$" "Cool-headed, lighthearted and outrageously entertaining, "Forbidden Lie$" is documentary-as-striptease, a careful peeling of claim & counterclaim to reveal one of the most complex literary scandals of our time.
Performing this dance of the seven veils is Norma Khouri, the Jordanian-born writer whose popular 03 memoir: Forbidden Love (known in the United States as Honor Lost), purported to recount the honor killing of her best friend, Dalia, but when the Australian journalist Malcolm Knox publicly accused Ms. Khouri of fabricating her inflammatory story--and concealing her identity as a Chicago real estate agent under investigation by the F.B.I.-she abandoned her children to a neighbor and went into hiding.
Crossing continents and genres, director Anna Broinowski's distinctively styled movie blends candid interviews and tongue-in-cheek re-enactments into what can only be described as a literary Whydunit. Brilliantly edited...for suspense rather than chronology, the movie is a she-said-they-said puzzle whose particulars pale besides Ms. Khouri's devastating charisma and resilient intellect. Cooperating fully and flirtatiously bobbing & weaving her way around every factual trap laid for her, the writer refuses to cave. Were her lies pathological or, as she claims, necessary for her family's safety? AT times even her filmmaker seems unsure."
--Jeannette Catsoulis
I seem to recall reading about this at the time. It reminds me a bit of the whole brouhaha over James Frey, who I recall you mentioned in one of your first letters. In fact, you know him personally, don't you?
Anyway---"FORBIDDEN LIE$" sounded intriguing, plus I wondered if you had any additional info on Ms. Khouri?
Word today of the death of J.G. Ballard author extraordinaire. Because of the powerful influence of Hollywood, he was mentioned as the author of the book that was adapted into the film "Empire of the Sun", Steven Spielberg director.
But as an enormous science-fiction fan, I know him for his prolific & bizarre & strange & thought-provoking novels & short stories. He is one of those British authors I got to know well from those bookstores in Africa.
If you have the time - can you send me any "appreciations" or Ballard analyses that you can find on the web? Thank you!
Must get this in the mail, but a couple more things:
>Also out of the DVD now is the Kate Winslet film "The Reader". Curious if you saw that film. Supposed to have had lots of heavy breathing & nudity, but also an outstanding story & plot & characterizations. Actually, I want to read the two novels on which Winslet's two films were based: REVOLUTIONARY ROAD: Yates THE READER: Bernard Schlink (sp?)
>Finally--ran across this "Doonesbury" & "Dilbert". They seemed to illustrate the dating scene that you so aptly write about in some of your columns & blogs!
Take care & hope to hear from you soon. Stay safe.
Yours
Michael
P.S. Just received your letter written last weekend=SUN 12 APRIL--with an India article & lots of good stuff. / Looks like I'll be writing more this evening & tomorrow.
Take care
[Ed.: included in this envelope were the mentioned Rourke article and two comic strips. Oddly, the Doonesbury one features a woman and man on a subway. The man is wearing an EYE PATCH(!) and the woman asks him out. He seems hesitant and she is very eager. He then tells her no b/c she is worried (stuttering) that she is too hot for him. So she points out that she isn't because she has a big nose. I find this interesting because I just bought an eyepatch to wear to have some pictures of myself taken while wearing it. I have been noticing people wearing eyepatches lately. Obviously for medical reasons, but I thought it'd make a cool picture.]
I ran across this article on Mickey Rourke and his recent brilliant role in the "Wrestler"; plus I saw it was going to be released on DVD tomorrow. So thought I would send it along to you. As you pointed out a few week ago: the contrast between the Cary Grant-like image on p. 1 vs. the stunning transformation on p. 2 is simply astounding.
As I wrote in the margin: Curious if you saw the 07 film: "Before the Devil Know You're Dead." Directed by the "venerable" Sidney Lumet, it starred Philip Seymour Hoffman & Ethan Hawke, as brothers who decide to rob a jewelry store for some easy money to pay their debts. I believe the store is run by their parents... Naturally things go from bad to worse. I did not see the film, but it looked and sounded pretty good at the time.
Today--as I'm sure the whole world knows from the media-is the tenth anniversary of Columbine. Still another U.S. place name whose mere mention conjures up violence. [Oklahoma City, Virginia Tech, Waco, ad infinitum]. It remains a huge story in Colorado. Apparently a new book by Dave Cullen shatters many of the stories that were accepted as truth for years: i.e. "trenchcoat mafia" never happened; the girl shot for saying she believed in God--never happened.
Besides the Mickey Rourke article, thought of you as well when I saw a story on the first new medication for migraines in over then years. They of course mentioned Imitrex as their current best option. Anyway---the new medication [phonetic spelling] is "TELL-CAJ-I-PAN."
According to the report, on one of the evening newscast, the new medication has shown great promise, and it attacks the root cause of migraines--believed to be a neurochemical imbalances that causes the blood vessel changes that result in migraines.
I'm sure you can google and find out more. I will tell you I have great empathy for anyone who suffers from migraines. I had a girlfriend who had them---and it was excruciating to watch her totally shut down periodically when they would hit.
TV NOTE: On last week's "LOST", I counted five different time frames: the 1) Now of the current story line which is 1977 on the island 2) Ben Linus stealing Rousseau's baby Alex in 1988/3) Ben with the growing Alex sometime in the early 90s/4) In LA before the return to 1977, which of course was = 07/5) F/B to 1974-when Sawyer & Juliette , et al began wkg for Dharma.
No one who hasn't followed the series could possibly understand these intricacies without an outline!
I ran across this film review reprinted from the Times:
"FORBIDDEN LIE$" "Cool-headed, lighthearted and outrageously entertaining, "Forbidden Lie$" is documentary-as-striptease, a careful peeling of claim & counterclaim to reveal one of the most complex literary scandals of our time.
Performing this dance of the seven veils is Norma Khouri, the Jordanian-born writer whose popular 03 memoir: Forbidden Love (known in the United States as Honor Lost), purported to recount the honor killing of her best friend, Dalia, but when the Australian journalist Malcolm Knox publicly accused Ms. Khouri of fabricating her inflammatory story--and concealing her identity as a Chicago real estate agent under investigation by the F.B.I.-she abandoned her children to a neighbor and went into hiding.
Crossing continents and genres, director Anna Broinowski's distinctively styled movie blends candid interviews and tongue-in-cheek re-enactments into what can only be described as a literary Whydunit. Brilliantly edited...for suspense rather than chronology, the movie is a she-said-they-said puzzle whose particulars pale besides Ms. Khouri's devastating charisma and resilient intellect. Cooperating fully and flirtatiously bobbing & weaving her way around every factual trap laid for her, the writer refuses to cave. Were her lies pathological or, as she claims, necessary for her family's safety? AT times even her filmmaker seems unsure."
--Jeannette Catsoulis
I seem to recall reading about this at the time. It reminds me a bit of the whole brouhaha over James Frey, who I recall you mentioned in one of your first letters. In fact, you know him personally, don't you?
Anyway---"FORBIDDEN LIE$" sounded intriguing, plus I wondered if you had any additional info on Ms. Khouri?
Word today of the death of J.G. Ballard author extraordinaire. Because of the powerful influence of Hollywood, he was mentioned as the author of the book that was adapted into the film "Empire of the Sun", Steven Spielberg director.
But as an enormous science-fiction fan, I know him for his prolific & bizarre & strange & thought-provoking novels & short stories. He is one of those British authors I got to know well from those bookstores in Africa.
If you have the time - can you send me any "appreciations" or Ballard analyses that you can find on the web? Thank you!
Must get this in the mail, but a couple more things:
>Also out of the DVD now is the Kate Winslet film "The Reader". Curious if you saw that film. Supposed to have had lots of heavy breathing & nudity, but also an outstanding story & plot & characterizations. Actually, I want to read the two novels on which Winslet's two films were based: REVOLUTIONARY ROAD: Yates THE READER: Bernard Schlink (sp?)
>Finally--ran across this "Doonesbury" & "Dilbert". They seemed to illustrate the dating scene that you so aptly write about in some of your columns & blogs!
Take care & hope to hear from you soon. Stay safe.
Yours
Michael
P.S. Just received your letter written last weekend=SUN 12 APRIL--with an India article & lots of good stuff. / Looks like I'll be writing more this evening & tomorrow.
Take care
[Ed.: included in this envelope were the mentioned Rourke article and two comic strips. Oddly, the Doonesbury one features a woman and man on a subway. The man is wearing an EYE PATCH(!) and the woman asks him out. He seems hesitant and she is very eager. He then tells her no b/c she is worried (stuttering) that she is too hot for him. So she points out that she isn't because she has a big nose. I find this interesting because I just bought an eyepatch to wear to have some pictures of myself taken while wearing it. I have been noticing people wearing eyepatches lately. Obviously for medical reasons, but I thought it'd make a cool picture.]
Monday, April 27, 2009
An Unexpected Letter:
Today I got a letter from a prisoner I have never written to. Yet his prison is the same federal prison as Raffaello Follieri's. As you may remember Raffaello and I were writing to each other for a while, and then he abruptly stopped. After two months of not hearing from him, I sent him a card two weeks ago just saying hi and got no reply, so I assumed he doesn't want to correspond anymore. But it's so odd to give his prison friend my address. Here is that letter I received today:
[All typos/spelling mistakes are the author's.]
Dear Kelly,
My name is Anthony Bucci, and I am a friend of Rafael Folieri's at FCI Loretto. I am writing you to introduce myself and to speak to you on a business and friendly level...Hello Kelly...my pleasure...lol
I understand from talking to Raf that you are a writer and I have read a few of your articles. I like your style. I am in the process of writing a book called "Infinity Crew" which I need some help with...I am looking for someone to edit it and to work with in the future...I am not going to get into a lengthy and in depth letter about what the book is about because you may not even be interested. It is a Gangster book with a classic plot which I hope to eventually make into a movie. I have some connections in the industry that are waiting to read it and go from there.
Now getting to me. I am a 6'0" 225 lbs Italian, 46 years old and currently single. I am doing a 21 year sentence but should be getting this conviction overturned in the near future. I am college educated and looking for a friend also. I take friendship very serious and can tell you that you will not find a more loyal person to associate with. I saw your picture and read your articles (even the risque one) and liked what I saw and read. I am a handsome guy myself and can send you a picture if you are interested. Let me know. I did not want to be forward and send a picture on my own and disrespect you in any way.
Kelly, if you are interested in talking more about either working together or conversing with a great guy don't hesitate to drop me a line...you won't be sorry, trust that, Ciao Bella...
Sincerely yours,
Anthony
[All typos/spelling mistakes are the author's.]
Dear Kelly,
My name is Anthony Bucci, and I am a friend of Rafael Folieri's at FCI Loretto. I am writing you to introduce myself and to speak to you on a business and friendly level...Hello Kelly...my pleasure...lol
I understand from talking to Raf that you are a writer and I have read a few of your articles. I like your style. I am in the process of writing a book called "Infinity Crew" which I need some help with...I am looking for someone to edit it and to work with in the future...I am not going to get into a lengthy and in depth letter about what the book is about because you may not even be interested. It is a Gangster book with a classic plot which I hope to eventually make into a movie. I have some connections in the industry that are waiting to read it and go from there.
Now getting to me. I am a 6'0" 225 lbs Italian, 46 years old and currently single. I am doing a 21 year sentence but should be getting this conviction overturned in the near future. I am college educated and looking for a friend also. I take friendship very serious and can tell you that you will not find a more loyal person to associate with. I saw your picture and read your articles (even the risque one) and liked what I saw and read. I am a handsome guy myself and can send you a picture if you are interested. Let me know. I did not want to be forward and send a picture on my own and disrespect you in any way.
Kelly, if you are interested in talking more about either working together or conversing with a great guy don't hesitate to drop me a line...you won't be sorry, trust that, Ciao Bella...
Sincerely yours,
Anthony
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Letters from the Inside, Sarah Pender, #4
Dear Kelly,
It's so cold out, raining heavily and windy. The cold seeps in through the window cracks and chills me. I get so sleepy and subdued in rainy weather. I bet it kills you in the icky weather to walk Mini. This week he gets to go to his big family reunion. Yay! I love dogs. I never had one of my own as a kid. I raised two Golden Retrievers and trained them through levels I and II for a handicapped assistance dog program. Barclay is with an 11 year old boy named Jacob who has cerebral palsy, is mostly blind and has seizures. Dewey is now in advanced training and will be going to a 15-year old girl with severe depression as a companion and a segueway to social interaction. They were great dogs. I love them, as if they were my children. I read once where Leona Helmsley left her dog 12 million dollars and several grandkids got $0. What a kick in the nuts.
Why would you read a memoir of someone who irritates you? That would be like me reading the autobiography of Rush Limbaugh. No thanks I'll keep my sanity, thank you very much.
you said you'll be taking a 2 week class in June on how to get published. What is your goal? What sort of writing do you want published? Do you have a genre in mind?
Thank you for the non-fiction book proposal parts. I still haven't decided if I want to do self publishing with a Print On Demand company or go with a publisher. I don't' want to give up all my rights to them.
Why are the ratio of women to men so high in New York City?
I admire what John Walsh did with his devastation over his son Adam being murdered; to turn a hurt/anger/loss into something positive. I do not like how that positive idea becomes persecutory and untruthful-sensationalized for the same of television ratings. There was so much they said on there that wasn't true about me. They are okay with ruining my image because they deem me to be less of a person. It becomes a moral issue for them. So, is it ethical to slander a person in the name of justice? How about is it ethical to knowingly lie in the name of ratings in order to fun a good, justice seeking program? That's utilitarianism. It should be illegal. I get that AMW catches people who have done very bad things and are a danger to society. I can tell you from personal experience that the real danger to our society aren't the ones on AMW.
What is the name of the book the young man's father wrote? {Ed.: She is talking about Bart Whitaker's father's book, Murder by Family. How did you learn about it? Who are your top five authors who are not bestsellers and what subject do they write about?
I just finished Long Quiet Highway by Natalie Goldberg. It's her story of how she came to her personal transcendence through writing and through Zen. My friend sent me her book and a week later an autographed card from a book reading she did in St. Louis. There were parts that moved me. Made me think. Enjoyable to move through those spaces with her. I hope my book is enjoyable and inspirational to others. It focuses on transformation on the human spirit, integrity, choices, direction and living life with a purpose. It just happens that I learned this through drugs, murder, prison, escaping and a ton of positive and purposeful activities along the way.
Life is funny that way.
I've had migraines on and off since I was 8 years old. I've taken Fioranol, Midrin, Imitrex, Inderaol and lots and lots of Tylenol. After your motorcycle accident, do you still ride? My friend used to ride a lot until she came upon a deadly crash one day that was so intense she gave her cycle away that very day.
My father rides on weekends into the mountains and along the west coast with his wife. Next month, they are planning a long several week trip to Yosemite Nat'l Park. Last time, they went to see the Grand Canyon. How beautiful to experience life on the open road, so close to nature and that huge expanse of sky!
Hey--if there's so many woman in NYC, maybe you should start dating women? That would enhance your dating life and be fun to blog about!
Who was the famous person you dated? And how did you meet him?
What do you think your purpose in life is, Kelly? What do you want to do with the rest of your life? When you die, what will people say at your funeral?
I hope this finds you well. Take care.
Sarah
It's so cold out, raining heavily and windy. The cold seeps in through the window cracks and chills me. I get so sleepy and subdued in rainy weather. I bet it kills you in the icky weather to walk Mini. This week he gets to go to his big family reunion. Yay! I love dogs. I never had one of my own as a kid. I raised two Golden Retrievers and trained them through levels I and II for a handicapped assistance dog program. Barclay is with an 11 year old boy named Jacob who has cerebral palsy, is mostly blind and has seizures. Dewey is now in advanced training and will be going to a 15-year old girl with severe depression as a companion and a segueway to social interaction. They were great dogs. I love them, as if they were my children. I read once where Leona Helmsley left her dog 12 million dollars and several grandkids got $0. What a kick in the nuts.
Why would you read a memoir of someone who irritates you? That would be like me reading the autobiography of Rush Limbaugh. No thanks I'll keep my sanity, thank you very much.
you said you'll be taking a 2 week class in June on how to get published. What is your goal? What sort of writing do you want published? Do you have a genre in mind?
Thank you for the non-fiction book proposal parts. I still haven't decided if I want to do self publishing with a Print On Demand company or go with a publisher. I don't' want to give up all my rights to them.
Why are the ratio of women to men so high in New York City?
I admire what John Walsh did with his devastation over his son Adam being murdered; to turn a hurt/anger/loss into something positive. I do not like how that positive idea becomes persecutory and untruthful-sensationalized for the same of television ratings. There was so much they said on there that wasn't true about me. They are okay with ruining my image because they deem me to be less of a person. It becomes a moral issue for them. So, is it ethical to slander a person in the name of justice? How about is it ethical to knowingly lie in the name of ratings in order to fun a good, justice seeking program? That's utilitarianism. It should be illegal. I get that AMW catches people who have done very bad things and are a danger to society. I can tell you from personal experience that the real danger to our society aren't the ones on AMW.
What is the name of the book the young man's father wrote? {Ed.: She is talking about Bart Whitaker's father's book, Murder by Family. How did you learn about it? Who are your top five authors who are not bestsellers and what subject do they write about?
I just finished Long Quiet Highway by Natalie Goldberg. It's her story of how she came to her personal transcendence through writing and through Zen. My friend sent me her book and a week later an autographed card from a book reading she did in St. Louis. There were parts that moved me. Made me think. Enjoyable to move through those spaces with her. I hope my book is enjoyable and inspirational to others. It focuses on transformation on the human spirit, integrity, choices, direction and living life with a purpose. It just happens that I learned this through drugs, murder, prison, escaping and a ton of positive and purposeful activities along the way.
Life is funny that way.
I've had migraines on and off since I was 8 years old. I've taken Fioranol, Midrin, Imitrex, Inderaol and lots and lots of Tylenol. After your motorcycle accident, do you still ride? My friend used to ride a lot until she came upon a deadly crash one day that was so intense she gave her cycle away that very day.
My father rides on weekends into the mountains and along the west coast with his wife. Next month, they are planning a long several week trip to Yosemite Nat'l Park. Last time, they went to see the Grand Canyon. How beautiful to experience life on the open road, so close to nature and that huge expanse of sky!
Hey--if there's so many woman in NYC, maybe you should start dating women? That would enhance your dating life and be fun to blog about!
Who was the famous person you dated? And how did you meet him?
What do you think your purpose in life is, Kelly? What do you want to do with the rest of your life? When you die, what will people say at your funeral?
I hope this finds you well. Take care.
Sarah
